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I think the hearing voices while falling asleep and waking up is called, (a really scary name) but "exploding head syndrome". It's named after the common loud banging or gunshot some people hear from it, but from the research I've done it isn't related to any underlying health issues. I deal with that too, I've heard my family have entire conversations about leaving me behind if I don't wake up but when I get up, everyone's asleep. I'm sorry you're dealing with this though, the stress that comes with ocd is unfair.
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Oh my that does sound scary!
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I also think so much my body kind of lives in auto pilot.. I’m so in my head I will do three tasks and literally wonder how or what I did.
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This is exactly how I have felt for my whole life. I am only used to ruminations and as hard as I don’t try, I guess you could say, I cannot seem to free myself, right now as my medication had been lifted higher, I am literally watching my ruminating imbalance slow itself down owing to the meds, whilst I simultaneously still feel the utter need to ruminate even though I am supposed to know it is irrational. It truly does take the irrational train of thought and take it to a sense of insanity thinking. And that is another I worry about, will I be ‘crazy’ all my life because of this? I have watched friends and family and my girlfriend go about their day while I beg my mind to stop ruminating. It’s torture and I feel for all of you
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This is exactly how I feel
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I woke up in a panic this am
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This is exactly what I’m feeling down to a T. I feel this way and I hear voices of like cartoon characters that I’m watching because I’m so into the show and it only happens as I’m waking up slowly or if I’m falling asleep but it does not happen during the day. And it even gets to the point where I stare at objects during the day to see if they’ll talk to me because I am so obsessed with thinking I’m schizophrenic or the fear of becoming schizophrenic. I even asked my normal therapist a couple years ago if I was and she kind of giggled and said no you don’t have any symptoms or any signs that you are schizophrenic and she has seen me for 15 years now. I have also experienced hearing my family members Have random conversations and it’s nothing bad or it’s nothing evil it’s just they’re having conversations it’s very weird. But you are not alone what you wrote is exactly what I have been dealing with lately it’s kind of comforting to know that I’m not alone and that it is OCD.
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Do you hear family members voices and conversations like when you first wake up or falling asleep? Or all the time
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@Messa Just waking up and falling asleep
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@Hazel It definitely does help knowing someone else can relate! How old are you by the way? Sorry if that’s personal. I’m 23, I just also deal with being in the stage where I guess it’s “common”.. and it makes me more nervous. I hate this OCD theme :((
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@Messa It is isn’t it! Helps you feel like you’re not alone and or crazy. I am 30 and no you’re ok I’m a open book :)
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@Hazel I think you have to be an open book with this
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@PoetART I am :)
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I have been having these fears about developing schizophrenia, it reached a point where i am starting to almost hear things or the smallest sounds and my mind tells me you're schizophrenic, and i feel this weird sensations in my ear as if someone is whispering yet i can barely hear them, the thing is i am not diagnosed yet because i never work with an OCD therapist but i study psychology so i just used what i learnt to give a meaning to my suffering, many themes of this fear have been happening before and this schizophrenia fear is the last one. I want to know what advice you can give me or ways to make my brain calm down a little bit, i also don't have and can't afford a therapist that's why i am here in the first place I also want to know more informations or experiences with this theme if anyone habe experienced it and what helped you with it I remember feeling better for a while but than i collapsed back, but i am hoping to get better soon too or anytime in the future, I don't want reassurance so make sure you be as real as you can, and thanks 🙏🏻
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I don’t even know where to start because there’s so much going on in my head and it feels like there’s so much evidence for every thought. Like my ocd feels like it doesn’t just have one specific theme it’s honestly every theme and it just switches throughout the day depending on the thoughts I have. This started all about a month ago, this whole ocd flare up. I’ve been diagnosed with ocd for about 3 years now and looking back on my childhood, I feel like I’ve had it for probably my entire life. My grandpa just recently died back in February and I feel like this whole ocd spiral is a result of dealing with grief especially because it didn’t even hit me for the whole month of April for some reason and things felt “normal”. But since this ocd flare up has started I’ve been constantly reviewing and revisiting my past, all my childhood memories and so many of them are terrifying which is weird because I never had a traumatic event hppen to me as a child. I feel like it’s always been “self-inflicted” trauma if that makes sense? My mind is telling me so many things related to so many topics like maybe I liked my family member as a kid and have just hid it to fit in with society? That my anxiety as a kid has caught up with me and I’m turning into a psychopath? That I’ve always been a creep and enjoyed looking at peoples privates or chests, etc but just ignored or allowed the thought this whole time. Also before this whole flare up I remember always feeling on autopilot and not really alive like everything I did I just felt numb about it. Which aids my ocd to tell me that these feelings are real and the thoughts are true and that I’m “waking up” or realizing or something. I haven’t felt such intense anxiety and distress since I was a kid and I didn’t even understand my own thoughts. It’s like I’m either hyper aware or totally unaware of what’s going on around me and it gets me thinking about my existence, personality, what my role in life is and like genuinely what I’m even doing in the moment like what’s the reason behind everything. I’m constantly questioning my intentions because I don’t know if they’re true or not and it’s like my ocd doesn’t even allow me to consider the thought it just jumps to conclusion. Like telling me I’m guilty before proven innocent. It honestly feels like so much at once to even simply call it ocd or anxiety because it feels like a crisis and any moment I could spiral and breakdown completely. Going to school everyday feeling like anytbing could trigger a panic attack at any moment makes me feel like I can’t be left alone with my thoughts. And like overall since I got down this rabbit hole, my first obsession was harm to myself, then it was harm to others specifically my family, then it was being a pervert or pedo, or being attracted or someone or something I shouldn’t be, which then makes me question my existence and who I am along with also being hyper aware of my facial movements like my eyebrows, nose, etc. Like why does ocd have to involve itself in every aspect of my life? It feels like there’s always something wrong that I need to fix.
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Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of “what if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me fired”. That really stressed me out, cause I don’t normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day “your dad is the president”, this one didn’t stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didn’t believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said “lonely” on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like “oh someone’s out to get me cause I got this”. I know this isn’t logical and it wouldn’t make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone could’ve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking I’m in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I don’t think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like I’m going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like I’m about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!
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