Does anyone relate? I have really bad schizo OCD.. and before I had a lot of other themes but because the schizo theme is current and taking over the other ones have kind of been pushed to the side and all I can focus on is becoming crazy.. Well these past couple of days have been bad and as soon as I wake up I have this like really uncomfortable feeling in my chest.. no matter how much sleep I get or if I wasn’t stressed before going to bed. Then another thing I guess since I don’t have thoughts about really anything else for the day (ex. What are my tasks today, I’m excited for this today, oh I’m hungry.. etc) my thoughts are kind of all over the place about my schizo ocd and then it’s to the point I have random conversations that don’t even make sense in my head or I hear family members voices in my head saying something but it’s like I know it’s all my mind doing it but it still confuses me why random thoughts I didn’t think pop up or why I’m hearing it in their voice but this only happens when I first wake up or if I’m falling asleep. Then once it happens my brain is like.. does this mean I’m going crazy and starting to hear voices.. idk it’s literally driving me crazy..

I think the hearing voices while falling asleep and waking up is called, (a really scary name) but "exploding head syndrome". It's named after the common loud banging or gunshot some people hear from it, but from the research I've done it isn't related to any underlying health issues. I deal with that too, I've heard my family have entire conversations about leaving me behind if I don't wake up but when I get up, everyone's asleep. I'm sorry you're dealing with this though, the stress that comes with ocd is unfair.

I also think so much my body kind of lives in auto pilot.. I’m so in my head I will do three tasks and literally wonder how or what I did.

This is exactly how I feel

I woke up in a panic this am

This is exactly what I’m feeling down to a T. I feel this way and I hear voices of like cartoon characters that I’m watching because I’m so into the show and it only happens as I’m waking up slowly or if I’m falling asleep but it does not happen during the day. And it even gets to the point where I stare at objects during the day to see if they’ll talk to me because I am so obsessed with thinking I’m schizophrenic or the fear of becoming schizophrenic. I even asked my normal therapist a couple years ago if I was and she kind of giggled and said no you don’t have any symptoms or any signs that you are schizophrenic and she has seen me for 15 years now. I have also experienced hearing my family members Have random conversations and it’s nothing bad or it’s nothing evil it’s just they’re having conversations it’s very weird. But you are not alone what you wrote is exactly what I have been dealing with lately it’s kind of comforting to know that I’m not alone and that it is OCD.