Does anyone relate? I have really bad schizo OCD.. and before I had a lot of other themes but because the schizo theme is current and taking over the other ones have kind of been pushed to the side and all I can focus on is becoming crazy.. Well these past couple of days have been bad and as soon as I wake up I have this like really uncomfortable feeling in my chest.. no matter how much sleep I get or if I wasn’t stressed before going to bed. Then another thing I guess since I don’t have thoughts about really anything else for the day (ex. What are my tasks today, I’m excited for this today, oh I’m hungry.. etc) my thoughts are kind of all over the place about my schizo ocd and then it’s to the point I have random conversations that don’t even make sense in my head or I hear family members voices in my head saying something but it’s like I know it’s all my mind doing it but it still confuses me why random thoughts I didn’t think pop up or why I’m hearing it in their voice but this only happens when I first wake up or if I’m falling asleep. Then once it happens my brain is like.. does this mean I’m going crazy and starting to hear voices.. idk it’s literally driving me crazy..

Woke up this morning immediately looking for the thoughts that I’ve been having even though i don’t want to think about them. I feel like i ended up bringing them upon myself and then i had a super gruesome thought and have been worrying about it all morning. Is it possible to bring thoughts upon yourself? Is it ocd or is it just me? I’m just so scared of going “crazy” that i keep looking for thoughts deciding if it’s me or not if you know what i mean. It’s such a scary feeling When you feel like you don’t know who you are 😭 i literally am just petrified of completely losing sense of who i am and doing something bad and being locked away forever. Is it possible to just turn bad? Does anybody know what i mean by that? Like you secretly have a double ego and completely turn into somebody different? Does anyone else experience this? Is it ocd? I’m so scared i feel like i can never catch a break.

Good morning just wanted to vent a little so the theme I struggled/ still struggling with? I don’t even know if am or if it’s just not as bad or what but the theme I struggle with is Schizophrenia OCD and I’ve just been noticing I’m hyper vigilant of random thoughts ? Like I’ll be reading something on fb or watching tv and a random thought or word will pop into my head that has nothing to do at all with what I’m doing at the moment and also just remembering random memories too that have nothing to do with what I’m currently doing. I noticed it happens way more often when I’m stressed out or anxious. I’m pretty sure yesterday morning I got triggered and that’s when the random thoughts and everything started again. It’s just annoying because now that I know I struggle with that theme so I’m not thinking as often “oh I probably have schizophrenia” but I’m still too focused on the random thoughts and words that pop up and it won’t be anything bad at all actually I’ll just be random words that I heard earlier from like a show or movie or video I was watching. It’s just really annoying and kind of stressful I was just wondering if anyone has gone through this and has any tips ??

My OCD theme is fear of psychosis/schizo and it’s gotten so bad idk what to. I feel like it’s starting to make me think crazy.. like my brain gathered all information on this mental illness and now mimicking it. Does anyone else have this problem? I feel like crying