Tw: bestiality, false memories Sorry for bothering you... But I have a new false memory and it's really gross and idk what to do. I hope you don't hate me but I needed to confess to someone. I burst into tears last night and I feel trapped... In the past, I've had a false memory with my dog (that I had s-x with her) the other day I saw something that triggered me and I began feeling shitty again. Yesterday something popped up in my mind that was really scary and I somehow believe it. TW for grossness but I have the brilliant and disgusting false memory that I "m" ( stimulating my cl-t by rubbing it against her vag-na). I honestly want to throw up... And the shitty part is that I'm not sure.... You know that feeling leaving the house and thinking you forgot something? It's like that.... Ofc, it doesn't mean you left the oven on but you aren't sure until you check. And I can't check if I did it or not! I'm 90 percent sure I didn't do anything... The closest thing I remember was to "m" next to my dog. I was in my bed and she was in hers. That's it.

Can I ask a question? did you go through a lot of trauma? Are we allowed to talk about Real Event OCD on here?.....mine might be just bad enough I can't talk about it....I am scared I am going to hell....I told the intake person on the phone the whole story and she understood but I am scared God doesn't understand.......sorry...I am a mess too and sorry I keep talking about myself I know I am being selfish but something kind of did happen and I don't know how to deal with it. Please get help and sorry if I am crossing boundaries but the suicidal tendancies will get worse if you actually do something...Please get help through a therapist hopefully there is good ones on this site to your state.....you haven't done anything yet so you have nothing to fear.....I think you might be like me and had a lot of trauma.

I am so sorry, that has to be traumatizing---- The brain plays terrible games!! I hope you can get help--- try to get help before something happens that you can't take back. I have something that I wish I could talk about but I wouldn't know how to start.....I told the therapist mostly about it but I am not over it---- (I left out a couple details because I feel like I was rushed). I want so badly to talk about because I can't get past it. I just hope you get help and don't do anything that you regret. It sounds like you are pretty sure nothing happened so keep it at that. I think maybe our hypothalamus got messed up but I am not sure... I am sort of suicidal and just so wish God would give me peace but I don't think he will because something bad happened.