I send intrusive thoughts in emails to caregivers they get alarmed and think I act on it I don't does anyone express thoughts in email messenger and whatsapp

I’m so sorry you’ve been told that. Telling the wrong people can be awful for your OCD. Whoever you’ve told about this clearly does not understand OCD, becuase if they did they would not think you were going to act.

I’m sorry no one understands. Are you seeing a specialist who can support you?

That sounds really hard. For your own well being I highly suggest not confiding in them about your OCD anymore, they clearly don’t understand. You will get through this. It’s only a season, things could change and get better at anytime. 💕

Sure you can talk about them. I actually have body dismorphic disorder, so I know how it feels on some level. I also want for independence, but my OCD and the fact that I’m a teenager are holding me back.

I can relate. Do you think you’d be more comfortable if you found your personal style?

You can wear whatever you want. I’m pretty sure they make some male crop tops. Don’t worry about what others have to say about it.

You should be yourself. Be confident.

Well do what makes you confident then. All you can be is yourself. It doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks.

Sure go ahead

That’s not bad, I’m pretty sure there’s scientific evidence that cold showers help people with anxiety

Well it’s good you found something that calms you.

That’s just the OCD talking. Be easy on yourself. I can tell from what you have said, that you’re in a situation where you feel stuck and very anxious/unhappy. But there is hope. You should see a therapist. Seeing one has helped me.

Do whatever helps you. Don’t be so hard on yourself.

I’m not trying to give you reassurance, but cold showers are proven to help anxiety. Give yourself a break.

I don’t want to give you reassurance, because that will make it worse

Reassurance just means to reassure someone that their OCD fear or rumination is irrational. Getting reassured is never good enough for people with OCD so it doesn’t last long, and soon you’ll doubt yourself again. So don’t think so hard about it, you’re spinning in circles.