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- garden
- Date posted
- 3y ago
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- ImagineSisyphusHappyImagineSisyp...
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Yeah I had this happen to me more recently. I deal usually with more POCD themes but more recently I've been freaking out over similar stuff. I've watched the step fantasy kinda porn a lot and more recently I started falling for this girl that has a daughter and I started panicking like OMG what if I did something horrible to her? I couldn't live with myself. So I've just been cutting down on how much I watch that kinda stuff. And I just remind myself how disgusted I am about it happening in real life. I try not to hyperfocus on it because I'm not going to remove the worry by becoming obsessed by it.
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- BigGyro09BigGyro09
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I'm literally the same, and it's also pretty much why I quit porn and masturbating. I didn't want to associate myself with those kind of things for the sake of the taboo. I knew I didn't want to act out the things I saw on porn for the most part, but all that guilt after such minimal pleasure just isn't worth it anymore honestly. I get much more smiles, tingles, and enjoyment just talking to my friends and doing the things I usually do now that my urges to watch porn or masturbate are beginning to lessen every day I resist. Take it from someone who's had a porn addiction and has been exposed to it at such a young age. I've seen 50 year olds struggle with the same thing. It can happen to anyone. Porn is honestly not worth it. For most people, if not everyone honestly, it's a coping mechanism that can get obsessive due to the dopamine hits. You're better off without it. Porn is the reason for my OCD mostly. POCD, harm, and slight incest OCD due to the taboo titles of the videos. It's just not worth it and looking at it now, it's pretty gross.
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- BigGyro09BigGyro09
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- 3y ago
Also it's really freaking nice to know I'm not alone on this or these feelings I have
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- garden garden
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@BigGip09 i’m happy you feel less alone!! and yeah you’re so right. it’s not with it. and i’m proud of you btw!
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- BigGyro09BigGyro09
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- 3y ago
@garden I'm proud of you too!! It's always nice to see that no matter what situation you're in, you aren't alone. And yeah, honestly, when it came to watching so much porn when I did, it made me sort of lose a sense of my real self. It really disorts the way you see things and the way you feel. It seriously isn't worth it, buddy. I just wish more people our age and much younger could be informed about these things more. It can be so harmful and people don't realize it until they even get the thought of wanting to quit but can't.
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- garden garden
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@BigGip09 yeah. and i guess the stigma around it can make it hard for people to be educated? plus often the shame makes people not admit to it (something i’m guilty of🙋♀️)
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- BigGyro09BigGyro09
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- 3y ago
@garden Yeah, it's so unfortunate. It's something everyone knows about, has seen, whether they wanted to or not, but nobody talks about it. They definitely don't talk about what it does to people and the risks. Admitting that it's a problem, taking the change to quit it all and proving to yourself that you don't need it, and for people to understand these things is a brave step up in my opinion. That "stigma" is what causes these problems to begin with.
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- garden garden
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- 3y ago
@BigGip09 yes exactly! like if conversations around it are avoided, people will be less likely to seek help or realise they should cut down
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- BigGyro09BigGyro09
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- 3y ago
@garden Exactly! Something as simple as talking about this stuff and the effects it can have on people actually HELPS us as a society. There's so many people besides us that struggle from porn/masturbating addictions or sexual habits they just can't take control of. People not being able to talk about things like these in terms of helping others just ends up marginalizing those people that suffer from it. And that's so unfair. I totally feel you on the taboo videos too. Whether it'd be searches or videos it just ends up taking a toll on you. I'm glad you've realized that or at the very least gave it a concern. I'm so glad we're able to talk about this like regular conversations. See how easy it is? Thank you for this. :)
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- garden garden
- Date posted
- 3y ago
@BigGip09 thank you too! it’s so nice to talk about it without judgement. and yeah, this awareness is the best first step for us. then change (which you’ve begun and i’m going to start!).
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- BigGyro09BigGyro09
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- 3y ago
@garden Awesome!! I'm rooting for you! I recommend the Brainbuddy app since that's what I use to get help for all this!
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- Aaron R.Aaron R.
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I'm in a similar boat, I've had a major anxiety spike the past few days after looking up a stepmom video and obsessively worrying if I'm some kind of pedophile. I'm frequently bothered by the kinky kinds of roleplay I'm interested in and start worrying what it means about my character. It's a very vicious cycle to break. As a very spiritual person, lustful videos don't really fit my ethics though, so it's a temptation I really need to break, regardless of whether it's normal or not. I think lust is kind of a compulsion in and of itself for me. Just know you aren't alone!
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- benmichaell
- Date posted
- 1y ago
porn
feel like if i stopped watching porn i’d feel like 50 percent better already. it makes me feel so guilty and i get so many intrusive thoughts. last night i couldn’t sleep at all bcuz i saw this video and it didn’t say the age of the girl or anything but i was aroused by it and she looked young. i hate myself sm. i’ve told everyone i’m gonna try and stop but after a day or two i just watch it bcuz it makes me feel less anxiety about certain themes but makes sexual intrusive thoughts so much worse. i used to be scared of porn because i thought i would go to hell if i watched it and now i feel like for the past year i’ve watched way too much. anyone have any tips on how to stop?
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- userrrr
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- 45w ago
POCD i need help- TW: sexual
I was ruminating, even though I shouldn’t be. I remembered another time when I had the weird feeling I can’t explain. It was two years back when I was playing a game on my phone and a weird ad came up for another game. The ad basically had a girl who farted and felt embarrassed. It was a cartoon. I got a similar feeling. I started panicking that I had a fetish for farting or something. I remembered that there was a video I watched on porn in the past where a girl queefed during sex and I was turned on because it was probably embarrassing. Anyways, when I saw that ad It reminded me of this porn video. Since I got the similar weird/adrenaline feeling when seeing videos of kids uncomfortable, I am afraid that it really is sexual.
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- Elicambel
- Date posted
- 40w ago
i’m panicking
i’m panicking because i remember when i was younger when i was 13 i found porn on instagram and i was scrolling and i was pleasuring myself and was always trying to make sure the videos that i was watching weren’t bad like someone being forced and i remember as i was scrolling while pleasuring myself i came across a video and it looked like a movie but the man was on top of the woman and she was crying but i don’t know if she was crying because of that im not sure but im pretty sure it was a movie or something and i still pleasured myself but not to that video but like just thinking about something else and the video just played in the backs it i had my eyes closed and i didnt watch it but it worried because what if i did watch it and pleasured myself while watching the video, i feel like im going to throw up i cant handle this, i wish i never got exposed to porn at such a young age
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