there’s actually no fucking way that I have had HOCD since I was 12 years old and that it wasn’t a sexuality crisis this has haunted me for years off and on so much so that i’m always conscious of jt even when it’s not that bad it was more like i had hocd and it affected me so much that i was kinda scarred like mentally which to me sounds like sexuality crisis that has gone into denial after years of convincing herself that she was straight in fucking begging someone to answer me please

I know how you feel, I have been dealing with the same kind of anxiety, because for me the fear of being a lesbian is not entirely new, I also remember going through times when I was scared that I could be during my adolescence. But since I accepted that I probably just can not know for sure what this all means I am doing a lot better. It sounds weird but trying to figure it out only makes it worse. This is probably what they call accept the uncertainty. I feel so much better even though I still don't really know what my sexuality is exactly. I am pretty sure though that I love and am attracted to my boyfriend though :) but that confidence only started to come back when I stopped wanting to be sure that I am not attracted to women or that I have OCD and not a sexuality crisis. Letting go of the urge to gain certainty is the key because with sexuality you can never be 100% sure. We crave a feeling of safety that just doesn't exist that is why we can never be satisfied. It's not easy and you cannot expect to be able to let go of this urge at once, but step by step if you try to not figure out the questions that feel so urgent in your head (try to answer, I feel anxious because I am not sure whether I am in denial or not but I don't have to figure this out right know, I choose to focus on the present, taking the anxiety with me without resolving it), I promise you it will get better!

Hey I’m here for you listen I know exactly where you’re coming from as a kid I experienced allot of gay type stuff with other boys but later into teens I forgot all about it and had no attraction to guys and started liking girls and dating them than lost my virginity to a girl and have been with quite allot of them than out of bum fuck Egypt at 16 years old I just someone started thinking I was gay and turning gay im 26 now so I’ve been dealing with this for my prime years of life when I should he enjoying myself meeting people but instead I’m actually depressed and on the verge of suicide I honestly think at this point that I am actually gay or bi and I’m just having a hard time admitting it I don’t know anymore but I’m fucking scared and I don’t know what to do I wish I could help you but I can’t even help myself but thought I’d share my story with you