I feel so drained, I’ve been having sexually intrusive thoughts about my daughter. I keep telling myself what if I did this or that and it makes me think I did do something harmful towards her when I know I haven’t. Ugh I hate my ocd it’s always playing with my mind and makes me feel like a bad mom :(

POCD

IowaOCD

Date posted: 4y

Your not a bad mom. I deal with the same thing. I suffer from POCD. Im a father of 3 boys. Im just getting started with using this app. What makes you a good mom is you care enough about your mental health to be on here. We are here for you

Anonymous12

Date posted: 4y

Just curious are you seeing a therapist? I’m currently looking for one

IowaOCD

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous12 Yes I found a great therapist through this app. My insurance doesn’t cover it but you can break it into payments. Im here for you if I can help also

Anonymous12

Date posted: 4y

@IowaOCD Awesome! I’m looking for a therapist but I’m scared that because I have POCD my child can be taken from me

IowaOCD

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous12 I had the same fear. Face the fear and find a therapist on here. Its one of the scariest things you will do but one of the most rewarding. You are bot a bad person and especially not a bad parent. Your ocd attacks what u love most.

IowaOCD

Date posted: 4y

@Ilovefinnickodair Let me ask if Im able to shsre who it is. I dont know the rules on that

Anonymous12

Date posted: 4y

@IowaOCD Thank you so much I am going to look for one I’m tired of feeling this way when I know I’m a good mom

Anonymous12

Date posted: 4y

@IowaOCD Do you also suffer from false memory OCD?

IowaOCD

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous12 I have but its not consistently. I had one major episode but I got past that. If there’s one thing I’ve learned through all my therapy over the years it is the more that you acknowledge the thoughts and the more it tells your brain they’re important. Lately when I have intrusive thoughts I try not to put any importance on them. That’s help me out greatly

Anonymous12

Date posted: 4y

@IowaOCD Thank you so much I will keep that in mind!

MamaOcd

Date posted: 4y

That sucks. Maybe think of it like an abusive & manipulative partner that you just broke up with. Know it will say and do anything to beat you down and keep you/ get you back, but tell it, “we are done. I am not listening to you anymore and I am not letting your lies control how I feel about myself.” It will keep on chatting , and keep trying for a while, but eventually it will get less and less until it gives up. Like a bad X, sometimes throughout life it will show up again, and try to wiggle its way back, especially if it sees you are going through a hard time, but every time you need to tell it, “ Nope! We are through! You have no power here! Move along!”

Magzzz

Date posted: 4y

I know exactly what you mean. It’s happens to me too about my niece. I would never in my entire life hurt anyone ever and I mean that with all my heart. I just want the thoughts to go away so badly but they get worse and worse. I know deep down with all my heart this isn’t me at all. I hope it gets better for you. You are definitely not a bad mom. Just keep being there for your daughter and never give up. You are not alone. Stay strong

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