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Your not a bad mom. I deal with the same thing. I suffer from POCD. Im a father of 3 boys. Im just getting started with using this app. What makes you a good mom is you care enough about your mental health to be on here. We are here for you
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Just curious are you seeing a therapist? I’m currently looking for one
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@Anonymous12 Yes I found a great therapist through this app. My insurance doesn’t cover it but you can break it into payments. Im here for you if I can help also
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@IowaOCD Awesome! I’m looking for a therapist but I’m scared that because I have POCD my child can be taken from me
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@Anonymous12 I had the same fear. Face the fear and find a therapist on here. Its one of the scariest things you will do but one of the most rewarding. You are bot a bad person and especially not a bad parent. Your ocd attacks what u love most.
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@Ilovefinnickodair Let me ask if Im able to shsre who it is. I dont know the rules on that
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@IowaOCD Thank you so much I am going to look for one I’m tired of feeling this way when I know I’m a good mom
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@IowaOCD Do you also suffer from false memory OCD?
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@Anonymous12 I have but its not consistently. I had one major episode but I got past that. If there’s one thing I’ve learned through all my therapy over the years it is the more that you acknowledge the thoughts and the more it tells your brain they’re important. Lately when I have intrusive thoughts I try not to put any importance on them. That’s help me out greatly
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@IowaOCD Thank you so much I will keep that in mind!
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That sucks. Maybe think of it like an abusive & manipulative partner that you just broke up with. Know it will say and do anything to beat you down and keep you/ get you back, but tell it, “we are done. I am not listening to you anymore and I am not letting your lies control how I feel about myself.” It will keep on chatting , and keep trying for a while, but eventually it will get less and less until it gives up. Like a bad X, sometimes throughout life it will show up again, and try to wiggle its way back, especially if it sees you are going through a hard time, but every time you need to tell it, “ Nope! We are through! You have no power here! Move along!”
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I know exactly what you mean. It’s happens to me too about my niece. I would never in my entire life hurt anyone ever and I mean that with all my heart. I just want the thoughts to go away so badly but they get worse and worse. I know deep down with all my heart this isn’t me at all. I hope it gets better for you. You are definitely not a bad mom. Just keep being there for your daughter and never give up. You are not alone. Stay strong
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That's what OCD feels like. Especially the constant questioning and doubt and the more you do it, the more you doubt yourself and it ends up leaving you open for other 'attacks'. I left the house today with my mom to run errands and things were fine, like my intrusive thoughts weren't bothering me that much in the beginning though they're constant in the background. Then when we stopped to get a drink from this store before leaving, I got more anxious because there were lots of kids around (it's afternoon here and i guess school was coming out). Kids were walking around in school uniform and I just told myself to keep looking away because i knew that my intrusive thoughts were going to flare up. Obviously that just made it worse and I just wanted to run away and crawl into a hole or something. Then a few minutes passed and then my brain said what if you were leering at the kids or looking at them inappropriately. And then my brain kept telling me that I wanted to or must have filmed one of them even though it's not something I want to do and know deep down that I didn't do it and don't want to. Ever. I just felt so disgusted with myself, I had to stop myself from crying on the way home. I hate this disease and I hate that its made its home in my head.
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It was all your POCD they say, but now I'm like is it just a cover up. The feelings were SO REAL feeling in the moment. I feel like the friends who have told me it's OCD isn't even true anymore. It felt so real but I asked my child to move so it didn't happen again. I was scared. Thought I was going to be taken away. I've been ruminating for a month now. I've been feeling sick like I don't deserve to be her mom. Ugh I hate this.
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TW! please someone comment When I was 12 or 13 I used to babysit a little girl, she had a habit of keeping her hand in her diaper and was always touching herself, there was one point I was changing her diaper and noticed she was really red. I had separated her private parts and checked the inner area for signs of infection. She was okay, just some really really bad diaper rash. I know this is what happened yet my brain is trying to convince me that I hurt her, and that I wanted to do it, I know I would never hurt a child but with all the anxiety I feel when I think about it I'm starting to wonder if I did do it because I wanted to hurt her, I don't wanna be a p, I don't wanna hurt innocent children, I used to never have these thoughts but now I do and I'm so scared to tell my therapist as she hasn't diagnosed me with ocd yet. I don't want her to think I'm a p nor do I wanna hurt kids, but my brain keeps telling me that I do and that I'm just lying to myself and everyone around me, ik I would never do something that could harm a child but I keep getting these thoughts and their inappropriate and I just want them to stop, does anyone have any tips on how to help myself? I keep turning to my boyfriend for reassurance but ik that that's just a quick fix and that ill be spiraling about it again.Please help
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