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- 4y ago
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Your not a bad mom. I deal with the same thing. I suffer from POCD. Im a father of 3 boys. Im just getting started with using this app. What makes you a good mom is you care enough about your mental health to be on here. We are here for you
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- 3y ago
Just curious are you seeing a therapist? I’m currently looking for one
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- 3y ago
@Anonymous12 Yes I found a great therapist through this app. My insurance doesn’t cover it but you can break it into payments. Im here for you if I can help also
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- 3y ago
@IowaOCD Awesome! I’m looking for a therapist but I’m scared that because I have POCD my child can be taken from me
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- 3y ago
@Anonymous12 I had the same fear. Face the fear and find a therapist on here. Its one of the scariest things you will do but one of the most rewarding. You are bot a bad person and especially not a bad parent. Your ocd attacks what u love most.
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- 3y ago
@Ilovefinnickodair Let me ask if Im able to shsre who it is. I dont know the rules on that
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@IowaOCD Thank you so much I am going to look for one I’m tired of feeling this way when I know I’m a good mom
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- 3y ago
@IowaOCD Do you also suffer from false memory OCD?
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- 3y ago
@Anonymous12 I have but its not consistently. I had one major episode but I got past that. If there’s one thing I’ve learned through all my therapy over the years it is the more that you acknowledge the thoughts and the more it tells your brain they’re important. Lately when I have intrusive thoughts I try not to put any importance on them. That’s help me out greatly
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- 3y ago
@IowaOCD Thank you so much I will keep that in mind!
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- 4y ago
That sucks. Maybe think of it like an abusive & manipulative partner that you just broke up with. Know it will say and do anything to beat you down and keep you/ get you back, but tell it, “we are done. I am not listening to you anymore and I am not letting your lies control how I feel about myself.” It will keep on chatting , and keep trying for a while, but eventually it will get less and less until it gives up. Like a bad X, sometimes throughout life it will show up again, and try to wiggle its way back, especially if it sees you are going through a hard time, but every time you need to tell it, “ Nope! We are through! You have no power here! Move along!”
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- 4y ago
I know exactly what you mean. It’s happens to me too about my niece. I would never in my entire life hurt anyone ever and I mean that with all my heart. I just want the thoughts to go away so badly but they get worse and worse. I know deep down with all my heart this isn’t me at all. I hope it gets better for you. You are definitely not a bad mom. Just keep being there for your daughter and never give up. You are not alone. Stay strong
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- 20w ago
My ocd is ruining my relationship with my kids. Because of the intrusive thoughts I avoid being close to them, hugging or cuddling up to watch tv. My ocd is either telling me I wouldn’t care if harm came to them or it turns everything into something sexual or inappropriate. For example, my daughter wanted to show me how long her nails are so she started scratching my arm gently. It felt so nice and relaxing and I immediately panicked because I was scared the ocd would cause a groinal and I don’t ever, ever want a feeling like that connected with my child even though I know it’s the ocd causing it and not me i’d still feel horrible. I just want to be a normal loving affectionate mom and I can never be that for my kids because of ocd😪 I don’t see any other parents posting about going through this or commenting that they do and how they cope. I feel so alone and defeated.
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Every day my ocd makes sure there’s a new reason for me to stay trapped in my mind rather than being the mom I want to be that my kids need. Instead i’m stuck in my head depressed and pushing them away. The other day I was braiding my daughter’s hair like I always do and her hair is really long so when I get to the end of the braid I can see her butt in my peripheral vision and I looked down and I immediately got upset asking myself why did I look down?(the ocd has made me question everything I do now). I know it’s just because I was at the end of the braid and I just looked because I was already looking in that direction. A normal person wouldn’t even think twice about it. There was no inappropriate reason behind it at all but of course my ocd latched onto the situation and said I looked down because I wanted to look at her butt. I was so upset and said to myself “I don’t understand how the ocd started an intrusive thought because she was wearing baggy pants. I could understand if she had on tight pants and her butt was more noticeable” and the only reason I said that is because usually the only time my ocd starts intrusive thoughts telling me i’m looking at my daughter in a wrong way is when she has on leggings or a crop top or bathing suit ect. Now my ocd twisted what I said to mean that I like looking at her in tight pants. Nooo! That’s not what I meant but now the ocd won’t stop trying to make me believe that. I don’t ever look at my children in any inappropriate way. I hate this. I hate ocd and I can’t live like this anymore.
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- 18w ago
This might be asking for reassurance but I’m at a point I’m not sure if this is ocd and who better to ask than you guys. Also want to mention I have been to a psychologist who diagnosed me with ocd and I’ve tried to seek therapy through NOCD but had a bad experience so I’m just looking for an opinion I’ll take with a grain of salt. I’ve been through bouts of pocd that I got through but now it’s morphed into something that feels so different. It’s like harm ocd and pocd together and it revolves around my daughter. Before this happened I was a loving mother who valued my kid more than anything. Now this is happening and it feels so sinister. I’m getting urges to do something bad and I get these feelings like I want to do that and it’s like my brain gets foggy and my values slip away and I feel like I could do it. But then I get a moment of clarity and I’m like wait a minute I’ve never hurt anyone in my life nor have I ever thought about it and this is my child what is happening. But then I get that foggy brain again and it’s like I can’t see her as my child. I try to sit with it and it’s like I get this adrenaline rush and feel like I have to do it. But I know I don’t want to do that, but then it’s like trying to make me want to want to. I’m not sure if I’m just lacking insight and clarity because I’m overwhelmed with the groinals, urges, thoughts and feelings but I just keep obsessing over the fact that death is my only way out. I don’t understand what happened to me. It feels like this demonic oppression and I don’t know how to get through this one or if this is still something I can get through because it might not be ocd. I try to go with the thoughts and feelings and say yeah maybe, maybe not, or yeah I’m going to do that but it seems to fuel the feelings. I feel like I’m teetering between the person I was and this evil awful person who has no regard for others. I don’t want to be around my daughter and I’m just angry all the time. The fear and anxiety used to be something I relied on and I feel none of that now. I used to be able to say “well no matter what I feel or think I can control my actions” and now it feels like I cannot control my actions but I’ve never hurt anyone before. Someone please give it to me straight and tell me if you think this might not be ocd.
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