Im scared there is no way back for me 😥

It was the same for me i thought i lost interest i wowan too, but now i’m much into woman again it has been that way for the past 5-6 years, but i have been obssesing over other things that sucks too. I can easily put myself in your ailments, have been through it myself and it's a hell. I thought at the time that if I thought a guy looked good you were gay now I can easily see a nice guy without being afraid of whether I am gay

@Rab I'm so glad to hear this

you know it's funny how ocd works

@bea238 yes it's really weird sometimes

@Rab all my life I've been happy being straight and about a year ago hocd hits and it's like I've hated how this happened to me. I just wanted to go back. I kept hold on all my previous crushes in boys as a sense of comfort but its never enough for ocd is it. Felt like a tragedy in my eyes, how I was so in love with my identity and then it all seems to break. I have a boyfriend during all this as well as rocd. A year later and still thoughts prop up if I'm bi and now I dont even wanna give a fuck. I just want to move on from this constant questioning of myself and other parts of my life cant suffer from this.

@bea238 yes it's hard while it's on, it's good you do not worry so much about it anymore. I have told myself that should it turn out that I am bisexual I will try to embrace it instead of fearing it

@Rab I trust that we will be fine soon 👍

@bea238 me too, it is not the end of the world 😊

I think managing ocd is step obe

I think that finding a way to get your ocd under control might help clear your head

I get the being with a man thing neay everyday ... ive had this since i was 22 im 38 now and its got so bad with the feelings and thoughts now. I have always been able to cope up to about 8 months ago

@Ihateocd83 I'm also 38 mine started when I was 18, it got really bad when I was 29 and I told my then girlfriend about my thoughts and doubts, so until I turned 33 I thought I was into guys, suddenly a new fear appeared and I did not think about it anymore, it's rare the gay thoughts come now

@Rab I pray that this is ocd i get quite tearful and upset when the thoughts get to much.. i say stuff like me refering to stuff with me and my boyfreind and i want a bofriend etc..

@Ihateocd83 I know it well I did the same things, I thought I denied it, but I will never find that answer and I'm okay with that now. my best guess is that i'm straight but dont know for sure and thats okay too

yes i think so too can ocd really sucks have you told her about your thoughts?

@Rab Not my thoughts .. but she knows whats going on 😞

@Ihateocd83 so she understands you have ocd but not the details;

Yeah not my thoughts .. im really struggling today my mind is telling i want to be with a man i but it just upsets me like how did i get here i loved women more than life itself .. now i hardly feel a thing 😞

@Ihateocd83 those days I had too, for me it helped a bit to talk to my girlfriend about it. but of course it depends on so many things whether it is something you want to share with her.

I have seeked help dont know what else to do or where to go ?