Does anyone else ever have this fear that maybe they are gonna be stuck with this illness forever? I keep getting mixed answers so I never know if OCD really can go away or not and even though I'm doing alot better now with medication, I sometimes get really sad and start thinking that I'm always gonna be like this and that I don't want a life with OCD

Yep. I think it’s common for people to get into this cycle of thinking whenever they start to get over their OCD theme/enter recovery. Honestly, it’s just another way for our OCD to latch onto our fear of the future and the ‘what if’s’, and keep us in a state of anxiety and rumination. What helps me is to just try and ground myself in the moment and remind myself that there will be good times too (and that there have been good times where I’ve felt invincible from OCD). I just try and strive for that feeling of clarity.

With years it will get better/easier to deal with and live with. I don't know if it goes away but it definitely gets better

Absolutely. Sometimes I kinda miss the days when I was younger and had no idea my behaviors were attributed to OCD. Realizing I had OCD gave me a lot of answers, but it also triggered a new obsession over the sadness of being “mentally ill.” Which in hindsight is a stupid term. OCD is really a silly thing— don’t beat yourself up over it. Everyone has their battles and this is ours. Don’t let it get in the way of your fulfillment of life

It greatly depends on the effort you put into your recovery. It's a ton of very hard work. But a lot of people did it and so can you! You're not that special!

Yes but then I can see areas where I gave gotten better and medications that have helped and I know that I have hope.