I've overthought my relationship since September questioned it so much to the point where I'm still like this today. It's never gotten better or any glimmer of hope. I'm so scared and worried its bad timing and his flaws or he's not right and yet I just want us to somehow grow thru this before I one day just don't care and move on. Is there hope for me? :( I feel like the only one. I don't get good days and bad days. This is CONSTANT. I'm really in a low place. A really low place today. Sorry all. We are long distance too.

Relationship OCD

Shiba Inu

Date posted: 4y

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I suffered from rocd for quite some time too. I’ve had many moments where I felt like my thoughts were rational too and that I felt utterly convinced by their truth. I don’t want to reassure you, but if you put the work into cbt and practicing mindfulness, things will get better, but it takes time and dedicated practice to not give in to obsessive thinking. Personally, therapy, practicing Buddhism, as well as reading these helped me a lot too: The Power of Now- Eckhart Tolle “OCD Isn’t a Thought Problem, It’s a Feeling Problem” - Psychology Today Article “Choice”- Dr. Steven Phillipson

francine

Date posted: 4y

Thank you a lot. I'm going to look into all of these that you suggested to me. Anything with cbt workbooks and starting points? I have a therapist on the way but it could be a long waiting list. I got rejected for erp here with a therapist because she feels mine is more an anxiety thing :( says mine aren't compulsive behaviours. also I worry about real issues in relationships and timing even though I want it to work out and he is listening to me all the time despite flaws and what not. I just feel so on edge lately because everything is highlighted with this of course. I've been stuck deep in mine for nearly 7 months daily now and I just want to somehow overcome it with him. I feel like I need to let go in my gut sometimes but I don't want too. I worry because this year and soon I have other problems before him to let go of and worried that means we can't be together and my soul is forcing me in another direction. I feel dred. Sorry about the long writing!

Shiba Inu

Date posted: 4y

@francine No worries at all! You’re experiencing a lot and need someone to talk to. I’m glad you’ll be meeting with a therapist! It’s strange the other one said it’s just anxiety. I haven’t used any workbook but I can say learning about ocd itself (look up the cognitive distortions of ocd) and reading about mindfulness has been very helpful. I hope things will be better soon!

coccorocco

Date posted: 4y

When I was at my lowest, the ocd thoughts were constant without a single good day for months. Are you in therapy?

francine

Date posted: 4y

I just feel so alone with this when I read others with this rocd. I actually paid for my first therapy session this last Friday here on Nocd and she told me she feels mine is more anxiety or Ocd without the compulsions because they treat compulsions even though I thought mine were mental and I told her everything. She feels I'm best for cbt based therapy since mine is more anxiety and obsessive. I feel really anxious :( sorry about this. I want to come thru this but I don't know how

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