Hello everyone I am completely new this and I think I have been experiencing OCD...I have had anxiety for 6 years now and it has got better much better over the years and I’m so glad, Iv been getting this horrible thoughts and fears that I might be lesbian even tho I have a boyfriend who I love and adore and have been with for nearly a year and all my past relationships have been with boys...I know that I’m straight and I have never ever once questioned or said that I am lesbian or even had the fear that I am, now this thought is getting deeper and deeper in my head and I’m so scared and it makes me so stressed and low and don’t know how to get rid off it or how to make myself better, I would get therapy but obviously it’s expensive and I am scared that I might not get better or these thoughts won’t go away, I just want reassurance and to know that they are just thoughts and I’m not the only one going through it...can anyone help??? Thankyou x

Did you experience the same thing? What can I do to help as I think about the fear that I am all day the thoughts just won’t go away and like I said therapy is so expensive, I just hope that is OCD and I’m scared that it isn’t aswell my head is mashed and I’m so upset and feel like I have no one to talk to and that I’m the only one experiencing this

@Anonymous I experienced this exact thing! It started when i saw a lesbian and she was very pretty and i remember having the thought that because i thought she was pretty then that meant i was a lesbian too. I remember thinking it over and over and wanting the thoughts to go away.. i would sit in anxiousness for hours trying to figure it out. Erp is what helped me get out of it. You have to live in the uncertainty and tell your brain "maybe i am, maybe im not, i could be gay". I used to repeat that ti myself or even agree with the thoughts and then they faded slowly but surely. I'm not licensed and i cant tell you to practice this because it is very hard to do without help from a specialist.. but please know that you are not alone! I went through this exact thing. That boyfriend i was with while going through it.. we have been together 8 years now and are about to get married and have our third child. There is hope to get better! You can get better!

@Allyssa I’m so thankful for you commenting back it is helping me so much , I thought I was the only one going through it but reading what your putting is making me feel better I just need to learn that “they are just thoughts and there trying to eat my brain and making me believe I’m something when I’m not” Thankyou so much

@Anonymous You're so welcome. Please know that the thoughts may come back and make you doubt that its ocd, but thats their purpose. It is ocd. You have to learn to live with uncertainty and the unknown. Thats what its truly about. But most importantly, you are not alone!

@Allyssa I know I’m worrying that it isn’t OCD aswell, did you think that aswell?

So what your saying because there unwanted thoughts there not true? I just want them to go!

@Anonymous If you try NOT to think them, you think them. If i say dont think of a pink elephant, what are you going to think of? Thats your brain! When you try to push out a thought, you will continue to think them. Thats why erp is so amazing. It makes you think the thought and sit in anxiousness with uncertainty doing exercises and eventually the power they have on you goes away.

@Allyssa I know ours brains are so powerful and I know what’s true and what isn’t true, I really do appreciate your help and talking to me honestly it’s means so much to me as I have been struggling so much and didn’t speak to anyone about it and to hear that you have even through the exact same experience and to know that they are just thoughts is amazing, obviously there still going to be in my head and it will take time to get over them and to reassure me that it’s OCD...your a big help thankyou

@Anonymous Absolutely. Sometimes just knowing there are so many people out there dealing with the same thing is enough to take the edge off. I hope you feel better soon!

@Allyssa Thankyou so much I really appreciate it

@Allyssa Hiya again, another thing I forgot to mention which is really bugging me aswell, my thoughts get worse as I see like lesbians on the telly or if I’m scrolling through the app “tik tok” I see them and my heart starts to race and I really do start to panic in fear and be like why am I thinking this all the time all day 24/7

@Anonymous That happened to me too! My erp exercise for that would be to intentionally look at those videos or tiktoks and say something like "oh shes so pretty" or "she has gorgeous hair i think she is beautiful" like its no big deal (even if you have anxiety at the time) and then move on from it. It tells your brain that these are normal thoughts and that they dont mean you're a lesbian. Because remember, finding anyone attractive is normal.. male or female. That doesnt mean you want to have sex with them or that you are gay, it means your human but your ocd is making you think otherwise.

@Allyssa That’s good to hear Alyssa, as it happenes everyday and like certain things trigger the thought to get worse as like I said the tik tok app and stuff on the telly, but I’m only 18 years off age and I never understand why something like this has happened to me. My boyfriend dosnt know anything about this as I don’t want to talk to him about it I wanted to come on here and share my story and find someone that is or was going through the same experience as me and talking to you is really helping me x