tw pocd my pocd tends to attack girls ages like 11-15. it’s really distressing. i’m straight too. it’s like the fact girls are always sexualised (or atleast i’ve always felt like i’d been) and so it’s picking on them. but i feel so uncomfortable. ironically my type has always been older men which is like the exact opposite. but yeah these thoughts are worrying and making me check and it’s all so uncomfortable. it feels ‘more real’ or possible than if they were younger (my pocd has never attacked children, more often like young teens). saying all this makes me worried

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BigGyro09

Date posted: 4y

I've been in the same boat. You know, with my post you commented on? Thanks for being there for me. This shit is hard. It's definitely not your fault that society is always sexualizing things they shouldn't. It happens all over the world and it's pretty trashy. I don't know what's causing so much of this sexualizing lately but it's everywhere. ESPECIALLY Tik Tok. Yikes, that's the last place I wanna go to when it comes to OCD. Another thing is, we have the same type of romantic interests, being older people. I never feel comfortable dating a younger person nowadays. It never really bothered me when I was still a minor but it does now that I'm 19. My POCD never focuses on children or babies either now that you mention it. When I see the face of a baby, I actually smile without even thinking about it. They're just so adorable. I don't really care much for children unless they were relatives of mine, but my POCD usually targets teenagers in general, even though we're teens.

garden

Date posted: 4y

i think maybe our ocd focuses on teenagers because it’s a more grey area so it can feel more ‘real’. like we love babies and toddlers and wouldn’t ever see them in that way, and if we did we’d know it’s ocd. but with teens it’s less clear and so it’s scarier. even though it is still ocd (i pray!).

BigGyro09

Date posted: 4y

@garden With teens it's really complicated because we ourselves are teens. Teenagers are meant to be attractive since they go through puberty like traits that are meant to have them develop into adults. Prepubescent on the other hand, is a different story. That isn't supposed to be attaractive. I feel like it's OCD in the sense that not only do we make it clear we have an attraction to older people, but we don't act on the acknowledged attractions of teenagers, and I think that's good enough tbh.

Elisa

Date posted: 4y

Its so interesting that you mention always being into older guys. I have always been into very masculine, older men. I've never liked immaturity in the slightest bit. But since having pocd since I was 19 I've had thoughts, images, urges and sensations around younger people and my mind makes me think that I'm attracted to anything 'young'. But if we're talking about my personality that really doesn't make any sense. Its like my ocd (if it is ocd) has turned everything inside out and made me feel like I'm attracted to everything that I never have been before. In that sense it must be ocd? But it feels so real :(

BigGyro09

Date posted: 4y

Yeah this is really shitty and I don't understand it at all. I pretty much have very similar attractions to you and OP. I have like no limits to what I find attractive physically in a woman. Muscular, slim, curvy, white, black, hispanic, etc. I'm okay with a lot. But these intrusive thoughts about children, these urges, these very uncomfortable scenarios that I can imagine with children is very fucking sick. I don't want anything do with that.

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