all i think all fucking day is how i’m bisexual in denial but would someone in denial really even ruminate 24/7 about BEING IN DENIAL like i don’t know i don’t think so. that’s the only thing i can think that calms me down a bit. the anxiety gets so bad off and on to where i’m trying to come out to my boyfriend in tears but it doesn’t make me happy. like what the fuck someone with hocd doesn’t do this.

awwwwwwwww thank you so much i’m crying i didn’t know. i thought i was the only one!!! this helped a lot.

@holley I feel like whenever we think we are alone there’s always someone out there w the same thoughts. OCD is sooo crazy! You got this !!!!

i would love to!

@holley do you have Ig or Snapchat?? That’s all I have atm

@Anonymous i have snap yes it’s holleymaeg :)

@holley ok I’ll add u my name is Hannah :p

@Anonymous okay!!

It’s just so convincing, some days I feel straight other days I feel bi. It’s just exhausting

@Ximena I feel the same way. I never questioned my sexuality until I got a random thought one day. It’s like the thoughts make you think you are bi

@Day513 If you feel comfortable enough, how did thei start for you??

@Ximena It was a random Tuesday and I was fine. The next day I had a sexual thought about a female and I have been having the thoughts for 2 months now. Wbu?

@Day513 Two years ago I was in class and we were in groups introducing ourselves and as I was talking to my group a guy and a girl stumbled over a word and I remember looking at the girls facial expression and I saw that she looked kinda off and next thing you know I had a thought she’s gonna think your gay. Later that day I got home and I was laying on the couch still kinda thinking about what had happened feeling confused and then boom I had a thought that said what if I’m gay. And after that nothing was the same, started getting triggered by the word gay, lesbian, anything really having to do with sexual orientation. Seeing girls, gay people, like before this yeah I thought some girls were pretty but that was it, nothing else came about it. It was just that, but yeah I just worry that this isn’t actually ocd...

@Ximena I agree! Have you started therapy or started ERP?. We just have to sit with the uncertainty. It’s easier said than done. I tell myself I’m not 100% sure if I’m 100% straight. OCD will tell us we are wrong no matter what we decide

@Day513 I have started therapy on here yes! But I feel like my case is different and that I’ll be different and I’ll just find out I’m bi at the end of this, because sometimes I have the thoughts sometimes I don’t, I’ll just get triggered my things. Uncertainty is so scary tho like yeah maybe I am maybe I’m not but this brings complications when I try to date you know? Like how do I tell the guy I’m with what’s going on:/

@Ximena I feel the same way. That is hard for me as well. I am in a serious relationship and my boyfriend has no clue what is going on in my head. I started having the thoughts within a month of our relationship. It’s hard to tell anyone about OCD in general because I don’t really understand it fully. I feel like unless you have OCD people won’t understand.

@Day513 Yes that’s why I really haven’t told anyone about it yet, because I feel like they won’t understand and they’ll come to the conclusion that I must be in denial and stuff. But for me personally I feel like I must tell him because one way or another he’s gonna realize the things I get triggered by and he’s gonna ask me. So to save myself from embarrassment I guess I want to tell him now since we recently started talking so he’s aware of this. And just see how that goes, if he really likes me he won’t think it’s a problem but if it is then there’s always someone else. Like it’s scary because he’ll be the first guy I tell about this and I fear rejection because of it:/

@Ximena You should still continue to live you life no matter what. Maybe you have to find the right words to tell him. When I told my mom I made sure to send her articles about it so she can understand more

@Day513 Right it’s more of like how am I gonna tell him it’s scary😞 I even told my therapist about how I fear telling him and then me finding out it’s not ocd and me feeling like a fraud. But yes I actually did tell my mom when this first happened before I even knew what ocd was and she just reassured me that I’ve always liked guys

@Ximena I wish I knew what to tell you. I’m in the same position. But I’m so unsure and I don’t want to tell someone if I’m not sure. It’s just the thoughts that’s getting in the way of everything

@Day513 I guess we just have to take the risk and see what happens, I know the guy I’m with supports lgbt rights because he even told me so he seems mature and understanding. But only way to find out is by saying it, I’m unsure too but I will need to fess up eventually. With that being said I wish you the best girl!🤍

@Ximena You too!! We cant let OCD run our lives. We deserve Love! Continue to live and make yourself happy!