So I am not that anxious about the thoughts anymore and sometimes when I see/hear something that can trigger a memory from my past that ocd says is a "proof" that I'm not straight, I try to not argue with it anymore because i noticed that whever I argue with my thoughts, i feel more anxious about it. BUT when I don't argue with my thoughts, it convinces me that I'm gay my whole life (even though I never felt that way). Plus the fact that I'm not anxious about my thoughts makes me want to be anxious but really, I'm too numb to be anxious right now even if I would want to be. Maybe I do get anxious when I do engage with my thoughts, but it really is convincing if I don't argue with it. Can somebody give an advice?

Thank you so much for all of links, i really appreciate it 💓

I need to deal with the uncertainty but the less anxious I become, the more it feels real. Idk if this is even OCD though. There are just some discrepancies between what my mind is telling me and from what I know and feel, but for the most part it's very convincing.

@♧ Have you seen an OCD specialist?

@♧ I wish i could just numb out my brain, but Im too hyper aware of what's going on inside my head to not care about it

@222 Nope, nocd doesn't provide their services in my country

@♧ I’m so sorry 😓 I know there are other ocd specialists other than the ones on this app though! And there are great YouTube videos and ppl you could watch, Chrissy Hodges on YouTube is great