something weird has been happening lately. my hocd has been changing. lately whenever i get hocd thoughts i’ll just think (without making myself) “yeah so what?” or something along those lines. for example, if i get a thought like “wow they’re hot.” i’ll be like omg what!! i don’t want to feel that way about them!! and my immediate thought after will be “ehhh, well... they’re hot and i want to have sex with them and i don’t even care because it’s obvious.” i just think stuff like that without even wanting to. and even after i’m like “there’s no denying i like them at this point.” and i don’t get anxiety. so i think this is real. pls don’t comment anything triggering thanks

Sexual Orientation OCD

sarica

Date posted: 4y

Girl I literally “came out” at one point because the thoughts felt so real and I was so desperate to just stop feeling so bad all the time I literally just accepted that I was gay and it literally didn’t help like for a couple days I felt okay and then I went back to being like okay now I’m a terrible person cause I’m lying about my sexuality and I’m actually straight like it doesn’t matter I’m attracted to my brain just wants me to worry that I’m wrong

lmaocd🍓🥰

Date posted: 4y

when u say u felt okay, what do u mean? like u accepted that u thought u had a new sexuality? because i am feeling something like that. but idk what do u mean

sarica

Date posted: 4y

@lmaocd🍓🥰 Like the thoughts stopped for a bit I feel like it was one big compulsion and then they came back and way worse

sarica

Date posted: 4y

@sarica Also!! If you’re in a moment where you need to talk to a therapist or something check out Ali Greymond she has short videos that are SUPER helpful to get you through tough moments!!

lmaocd🍓🥰

Date posted: 4y

@sarica that’s so funny i wish i could send u a screenshot! i’m listening to her podcast right now

lmaocd🍓🥰

Date posted: 4y

@sarica yeah that’s happens to me like every other week

nGfloat

Date posted: 4y

I definitely get this. My head will almost automatically say stuff exactly along those lines and it feels like that is actually what I want but it makes me feel horrible and uncomfortable. The stress is largely gone though.

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