I feel so anxious and desperate right now, because I feel like my brain is telling me “why are you going to therapy/posting in this app, when these might be your intentions”. And I hate it because sometimes I’m sure that I wouldn’t do anything, but it’s like it doesn’t matter, my brain will still tell me to consider doing my thoughts. It’s like my brain is questioning everything I think/feel. Now I don’t know what’s gonna happen next and I’m disturbed.

Same! Iv never harmed anyone intentionally ever but when there’s no anxiety with it it feels like “oh so it is you”

Yes that’s exactly what happens to me! So consequently I end up not knowing what my real intentions are, and I start thinking, are my thoughts desires? Until I realize they’re not but it doesn’t matter, my brain will still make me question everything..

@Anonymous Same even when it’s not flaring up you constantly wonder would i?

@Anonymous Yes! I’m 24/7 questioning, do you wanna do it or no? Are these desires or not? And all day I feel like I have something to figure out, it feels like a burden on my head :(

@Anonymous Yessss 100% even when I’m on a bus I’m like “do I wanna hurt someone or worse” “Iv never hurt anyone before but what if it’s the true you now”

@Anonymous Yes same! I even avoid going to school/hanging out with friends, because I know I will have these thoughts and will be desperate to figure them out. They are so debilitating, that they hold me back from doing simple activities like working out, studying, watching series, etc :(

@Anonymous I’m the exact same

@Anonymous I really hope we cope this!! I know there’s a way back to our normal selves, even if it feels like there isn’t. I feel like I’ve already turned into a bad person and there’s no way back. Because it’s like I can’t decide if I want or don’t want to do my thoughts, and even if I know I won’t do them, I still have a doubt, so it’s really hard to believe there’s a way back. But I have hope, that we can do this! Sending love :)

@Anonymous Awh I know but we never been like this before so gotta be a way back plus could be depression making us doubt even more if we don’t know true feelings makes you feel numb

@Anonymous Yes that’s true, I’ve never been a violent/aggressive person, but I feel like since I’m a teenager, it’s the time were I develop my identity, and I feel like this could be the time for me to turn into a bad person:(

@Anonymous I’m 22 and only started these thoughts in December after taking an antidepressant

@Anonymous I also take antidepressants, they actually help. I hope we get through this!! Carry on

@Anonymous ❤️

Yeah that has happened to me too. But I feel like my brain is messing with me all the time, telling me to consider doing bad stuff, and it messes with me so bad that it confuses me

@Anonymous I’m the same I experience thoughts of harm so I’m like what if I did it I’d end up in prison, never see my son again but when there’s no anxiety they seem more real I guess