I'm feeling really confused. I watched some porn as an exposure to just accept what I feel ( therapist suggested looking at sexual material but dont compulse). I'm a woman but feel like I'm aroused looking at womens breasts. I've always felt it but hated it, I feel it even more now but at the same time I feel aroused by a man and woman having sex. Everything feels more confusing and it doesnt just seem like a gronial response. I feel like everything I've feared is coming true but it's also confusing. I also don't feel super aroused by men's bodies but yet would like to have sex? Just feel confused where this leaves me...

I'm not a therapist, but my thoughts about this are that the exposure shouldn't be watching videos to analyze how you feel. Instead you should say to tell yourself you're straight, and although it can feel completely different at times, you won't have to check it by watching a video f.e. Checking through video can also be a compulsion, in this case not to check and sitting with the doubt seems like the real exposure to me.

Seems like a weird excercise for erp but I’m not a therapist so I wouldn’t know

Then I feel like maybe I'm gay still because I know people can feel sexual arousal from alot of stuff. So just because I feel aroused by a guy that could be just because its sex. It feels like women are more attractive to look at.