Hi friendly friends! I’m new to this. I’m seeking some stories of hope & advice. I’m 23 & lost my brother in a traumatic way at the age of 12. Have always struggled with anxiety (been told GAD) about my health, the future but this past year it’s been on maximum overdrive. I’ve been in a healthy & mainly happy relationship for almost 4 years but now that it’s time to plan for the future I have developed ROCD. “What if I’m too mentally ill for him?” “What if I’ve lost ability to love?” “What if he’ll never move in with me?” I’m also scared when I scroll through social media I’m not living my life to the fullest. I don’t like my job and want to leave it all & travel the world or move to California. However, I’m not an independent person hate traveling alone etc. I’m scared I have been misdiagnosed & am doomed to be unhappy & have doubts constantly. Before this happened (around December) I felt so sure he was the one now I am constantly nervous and googling articles & seeking reassurance. I guess I would like to hear of hope & other people having successful lives & relationships with OCD. Hopefully this isn’t considered a compulsion? Oh well.

Relationship OCD

whatadooo

Date posted: 4y

!duel diagnosis is possible. I have GAD and OCD. They share symptoms and but have differences aswell. Sometimes gad has been a misdiagnosis for people though especially when compulsions aren't physically visible.

leap123

Date posted: 4y

This is your ocd! Don’t make and decisions based off your ocd thoughts! You’ll regret it. (I am going through something slightly similar) you will heal and you are so strong don’t give ocd the power. Stop looking things up bc that makes is 100% worse!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

Do you mind me asking you what you’re going through? I start ERP next week. I’m so nervous & confused how everything got so bad. I miss when my anxiety was more bearable. :(

leap123

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous Sure! I just go engaged, went through a little depressive episode and had to go fully remote for work (I am a teacher) have a routine of going to work helped my mental health so much. I just booked so many things for my wedding so it’s normal to freak out and but obvs I am super upset about having these thoughts. I have had 2-3 other types of ocd and have been able to 98% recover with them so I know YOU and I will recover from ROCD! The worst is the seeking reassurance. That is my compulsion so it is so hard for me but I promise recover is possible

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@leap123 Thank you. I am worried because I don’t think I’ve had any other types of OCD. I just obsess about not living my dream life and my relationship. It’s hard to accept uncertainty and I really hope I can get there. I don’t get why our brains would attack something we care about so much?

leap123

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous I feel this 100% on both of your fears. Idk why either and that’s why it’s sooo distressing. It’s also normal to only have 1 type of ocd I was just lucky enough to have more lol. Are you seeing a therapist on here or in person?

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

On here! I used BetterHelp then saw a trauma specialist but then she referred me here. I start ERP next week.

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