I was able to have sex with my partner. It was amazing.But then I started asking myself if I enjoyed it enough. Then I started asking if I am attracted to him enough. I should be if I was actually able to make love. My anxiety is peeking though... I had thoughts saying I wanna break up. I told my partner what I’ve been feeling. I told him I was worried I didn’t find him sexually attractive... I started crying. I need therapy... 😞 now I am worried everything was right....

@Ope Me too. It occurs automatically and is hard to stop.

@Ope Having sex again would be exactly ERP. :)

Yeaa you need to start putting in the effort to get results ! I feel like i say this all the timeee in previous posts

@Anonymous Me too.

😞😞 I am sorry....

@Mandy7710 don't apologize to me, you didn't hurt me, you hurt yourself and your partner, and also your relationship

@Mandy7710 it doesn't matter if you still love him, because if you don't fight OCD you will feel worse about him. it's reversable and you can get things back in place, but only if you listen and take notes and try not to make the same mistakes

@Mandy7710 Mandy, many people have been through this, I have also been through this and still struggle, and me and many people felt about their partners in the worst way possible, numb, anxious, doubt and urges to leave, quilt, we all have been through that. But if you try to fight, you feel love again, passion, comfort, calmness. but only if you fight

@Mandy7710 and fighting - isn't just staying with him. your confessment doesn't make you or him feel better. you actually hurt you both by just staying together and not doing new things to fix that.

I don’t mean to be difficult.... it just doesn’t feel like ROCD anymore.... I just don’t know anymore... it’s hard to listen to the advice when I feel like this... I’ve been dealing with ROCD for 8years and it never felt like I really wanted to break up.... 😞 I felt love once this month.. you’re right the reassurance doesn’t help bc they gave me moments of clarity in the beginning and nothing works.. My ocd got bad last year but got worse afterwards... right now I can’t say if I love him bc of how weird my head feels.. Everything I’ve done by testing myself like him being with someone else to see if I would get jealous doesn’t work anymore... I’ve become numb to everything.... I don’t cry as much or get thoughts that much... how can I believe this is ROCD when I don’t feel sad any more

@Mandy7710 That’s because that’s not what you’re supposed to be doing. That’s literally the opposite. You shouldn’t be putting yourself in postitions to test your feelings. We’ve all been through this before and also still going through it. The reason why it’s not soo bad for some of as anymore is because we’re putting in the work.

@Mandy7710 Alsooo putting your main focus on fixing your relationship is not going to help either. OCD comes from within ourselves...start putting in the work most importantly for YOU!

@Mandy7710 If your ROCD just magically disappeared you would leave your partner. You wouldn't struggle as much. OCD feels different at different times. You got triggered months ago so you got worse. You are also doing wrong things - figuring it out, doing compulsions, ruminating. You haven't done things to improve. That's why it gets worse. You feel numb because of anxiety and because it has been a long time since you felt genuine love for your partner. And you can't feel it because you expect yourself to feel it. Not putting in work. Just doing wrong things so your anxiety and OCD grows continually.

@Mandy7710 You need to either choose to believe what your mind tells you and leave him, or choose to disregard and fight.