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So, you can have ocd that also seems paranoid. This is something I have- I don’t like going for walks in wooded areas for fear or rape or kidnapping, I don’t like being in public spaces because I’m afraid of mass shootings. The thing that stands out to me from what you said is “fabricated story”. You know it’s a story... sounds quite something someone with ocd would say .
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I think you should bring it up to your non ocd therapist and your ocd therapist.
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At first I was offended, but then I realized I am someone with ocd. But this type of ocd sucks on top of harm ocd. I’m starting to think I’m never going to get better.
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@artsygirl I plan on telling them both about it. Because I had an appt on Wednesday where she spoke about the Colorado incident and now I’m starting to think I’m paranoid all from her conversation. My brain is to sticky at the moment and she stuck something to it
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@Emm90 I can absolutely relate ! My exposure this week was going and lingering in the grocery store and it’s been hard but I’ve been there 3 times this week so far 😂
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@Emm90 I think news stories are super triggering for my ocd too.
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@artsygirl I can’t wait to see what exposure I get this week. I’m hoping it’s something to get rid of this paranoia crap. I don’t want to converse with my non ocd therapist because I end up having more in my brain than when I started seeing her
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@Emm90 I am only seeing an ocd therapist for now 🤷🏻♀️ everyone has their process though. M
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@Emm90 So I can relate. It’s just ur anxiety getting worse which is causing you to get paranoid.. I had two therapists as well, one who I worked with for trauma and the other for ocd and honestly I realize now that it’s not a good idea for me at least to have two therapists. Although it seems like ocd is a separate issue it can interfere with the other therapy. I think If ocd is louder right now then focus on getting ocd lowered before you start up with ur other therapist. That’s just my suggestion, you may not see it that way, but it can cause conflict. Wishing you luck
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@Tatu I have two because one prescribes me meds and one is for OCD. But I’ll make sure to tell them both. I have been fighting to get anti anxiety meds.
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@Emm90 Fighting? Why fighting? You shouldn’t have to be fighting for proper care. I’m sorry to hear you’re having a hard time. Maybe reconsider you healthcare team.
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@Tatu I’m stuck with the VA for now. My doctors have me on antipsychotics because my thoughts were triggered by medical marijuana. It’s been almost two months. I’m still having thoughts and my anxiety has gone up and my thoughts have been everywhere.
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@Emm90 The VA is difficult. Can you see if you can be re-evaluated and see if there’s a psychiatrist that specializes in OCD? Doesn’t seem like the antipsychotics are helping..
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@Emm90 You can download zocdoc they have psychiatrists on there, maybe you can pay out of pocket and ask for a medication consult, see what they say?
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@Tatu I called my PCP today and I’m about to have her go to war for me.
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@Emm90 That’s great! Good luck!
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Basically long story short, ive been dealing with anxiety for a very long time all my life I'm 23 now but about 5 months ago my anxiety started to get really and I overthink a ton and get worried to easily. So my chest hurt for a while from stress at work made me worry why it was hurting, then me worrying and thinking worse case scenarios was making it worse. So i and to go to the doctor and got diagnosed properly with anxiety and I have a med now that I take when I really need it called hydroxyzine but I also have another med that is Zoloft that I have been taking for a about a month now, to help with my intrusive thoughts I have sometimes i only get them when im stressed or when I'm by myself or when i just overthink in general, my loneliness depression is one of the reasons for my anxiety because I wish I had someone as in partner wise to love me and for me to love them. But anyways I've had intrusive thoughts about possibly hurting myself and family, or even my dog. Ive never acted on any of my thoughts in the past and I don't want to but I have had anxiety attacks when everything feels to real and really scares me. I constantly have the thought of am I crazy or am I becoming crazy and stuff and I've done a lot of looking stuff in the past about symptoms but most of them are identical to what anxiety is so it's hard to tell the difference. It's been probably 2 weeks since we last talked. I've been mostly doing good. But I just was wondering if had a little Harm OCD intrusive thought happen yesterday that targeted my Aunt at work she was complaining all day and when it got closer to the end of the shifts for us. I was already annoyed with a situation that happened earlier in the work day. But she came into my department and then went back over to hers and I said it out loud to myself and said you better get back over there or I'll, I tried to say something else because the word I was going to say was kill you. Obviously I don't but that's what my intrusive thought wanted me to say. And made me think thats why i got to hurt her to stop her complaing So the rest of the night I was saying she is safe I am safe I'm control, like this is just anxiety lying to you, it's just because I'm tired and got annoyed earlier. I can't tell if it was working or not because I was so tired and just wanted to go home. But after work her and I spent time together at our house she was on the one couch and I was on the other with a bunch of our dogs in the living room. I tried to keep my mind off of what happened, and I was fighting some stomach achyness already. But I obviously don't want to hurt her and we had conversations just fine. But I went to my other aunt house at night after work to go to bed because she has to watch my aunts dogs because my other aunt and family is on vacation. But anyways I'm trying to get over that word Kill, that word is what is scarring me and sticking. Like my anxiety is lying saying kill, or basically do harm. I don't want to do anything bad but I'm trying to shake that feeling and stickiness of that word. I'm just so scared and worried.
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I had blood work done for a test I was having a couple weeks ago. The phlebotomist hit my vein weird, my arm bled a lot, but eventually stopped. My arm is still sore several days later. The following week I had my bronchoscopy. The nurse used the same arm that was already sore to put in the IV for the meds. My arm started hurting, swelling and burning. I told her it hurt really bad but she ignored me; then I was out. It’s been a week and my arm still hurts, and my veins are tight and hard. Couple that with the white stuff all over my face, that nobody from the care team bothered to wipe off- which I didn’t know about until my husband asked me what it was, I got harm from my OCD! At first I chalked it up to the white stuff on my face was bad bedside manners. Now, I keep thinking that my doctors and everyone associated with the clinics are trying to harm me. This morning I had an incident with the fryer oven while toasting my bagel. I asked my husband about it and he says he didn’t notice anything. I was down to the last few bites of my bagel, and suddenly started feeling loopy. I spit it out and threw the rest away. After sitting awhile thinking of the doctors and phlebotomist etc… it dawned on me that it was my OCD telling me people were trying to harm me. I don’t know how to get over the fact that my arm hurts really bad and my doctor completely ignores my health concerns. I’ve been nauseous for the past two weeks or so - there is definitely something wrong! I think when they find out that you have OCD and/or Anxiety, they treat you differently, as if you’re making up the symptoms. I most certainly haven’t felt heard! My husband always says, what’s wrong now? It’s such a horrible feeling to hear him say that. Is this what you call Harm? Or is it associated with Harm? I’m not sure if this is triggering or not. I hope not.
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I have all kinds of thoughts that aren’t me it feels like someone is talking to me telling me evil things about people or to do evil things 😞😞😞😞 I can’t do this anymore
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