PLEASE READ AND HELP. I HAVE NO IDEA IF IM GOING CRAZY OR IF ITS OCD. Guys I could really use some help right now. My theme of OCD if it even is, it that I’m developing some sort of mental disorder like bi polar or schizophrenia. With one of my themes I was high and then someone did something to trigger me going into a panic attack and had to leave and go home since I was freaking out so bad. My house usually is creaky, but for some reason while I was freaking out it seemed to be more intense than it usually is. I woke up the next day and didn’t feel like my usual self, I felt sort of in a dream like state but my anxiety was going through the roof. I spent that whole day for like 14 hours straight looking at mental disorders and all of this makes so much sense that maybe I’m developing schizophrenia since it usually occurs around my age and drug use does take a part in that. The next few days I began to analyze absolutely everything around me to make sure I wasn’t hearing things. I spent plenty of time checking to make sure the noises I was hearing existed. They were all just normal noises you’d hear but it was still causing lots of distress. After hanging out with a couple friends of mine and indulging in alcohol I felt sort of grounded when I woke up the day after. I spent the next 3 days hanging out with friends and indulging in drinking. I was still being observant at times but I wasn’t as stressed about it or scared. After yesterday when I got home after hanging out with one friend of mine (didn’t indulge in any alcohol), I got home and heard like noises in my room. Normal noises but it sort of triggered me into another complete panic attack and I was truly convinced I was actually going insane. It was raining and really windy outside and it was making a bunch of noises outside and my house creak and I can’t differentiate if the things I’m hearing are real or not. I feel the urge to continue researching constantly and check to make sure these noises are normal. There was only a couple times I thought maybe I was hearing voices, but from the most part i can rule out it was my grandparents downstairs talking but I couldn’t exactly bring out what they were saying exactly so it was stressful. Since last night I’ve been overly observing everything and seeing if I can concentrate hard enough that I can bring out these noises or just any voices or anything just so i know if I’m going crazy or not. I’m super scared of developing an illness like that which would effect me permanently and limit the things I’m capable of completing in my lifetime. I just really don’t want to go crazy or anything and I’m just so scared this is like the beginning of that happening. I’m not delusional or anything, or seeing visuals or any other hallucinations. For the most part I’m a pretty grounded person but I’m dealing with intense anxiety and stress along with a headache throughout the day. I don’t know if anyone else has ever dealt with anything like this and if so please help me. I’ve tried calling like 8 therapists for a consultation today but it is hard to find bookings or any that are financially reasonable.