I really often have had those dreams where I somehow engage in something bad, like almost cheating with another person, but then I suddenly remember that Oh My God! I have my boyfriend. And I reject everyone else, not letting myself do the wrong thing (and I didn't even want to, it's not like forbidding something I wanted.) It's just like I forget about my relationship for a short time and then suddenly it hits me, and I feel fear that I am going to loose him because I almost was engaged in this bad thing, though it would have been an accident. What does this mean

Don't check, it makes the situation worse. You won't feel anything when you check for that. Checking is trying to control things and we want none of that control in our relationship. I am not really scared by the dream as I always think of him and don't want anything with anyone else, just curious why exactly this scenario keeps repeating

You can tell me something else that's bothering you, I am far from perfect in my ROCD but maybe I could tell you what is wrong to do and what's making your anxiety worse

@Daria Alexandrovna I really love my bf but as the rocd gets worse for me I also have (hocd) I get scared when he says sweets things like he wants to spend the rest of his life with me I do as well but because of this I begin to worry and get scared and I’m like do l? (I do) I know that he’s the only one for me and it scares me to think I could possibly hurt him like this

@ocd sucks Yep I also don't feel really good when I hesr sweet things because I begin questioning Am I lying when I think I want it? The best thing is trying to cut down the rumination. Engaging with thoughts. Also being busy building your own life instead. Do you do ERP?

@Daria Alexandrovna No I’m not I tried to do it on my own without a therapist it went somewhat well but I think I got a back door spike a week ago and I’m so confused and it’s making me believe almost that the thought are true I’m scared they might be this is horrible

@ocd sucks I keep denying the thoughts in my head over and over again but I’m scared I might want what Is happening I feel so bad all the time because it kinda feels like I actually want this but I don’t I know I don’t is it normal to be convinced at times it honestly scares me more and has me overthinking more when I don’t feel anxiety

@ocd sucks Denying is a compulsion and won't make you better in the long run, you can't convince yourself to think other way around

@ocd sucks Being anxious about not being as anxious is also part of OCD to get back into square 1 but basically getting rid of the anxiety is a point. The thoughts shouldn't concern you. It doesn't mean you agree with them