Just finished another session with my CBT therapist and when I was telling him that my head felt like it was telling me that I didn’t like my partner and that my partner wasn’t my type, he triggered me by asking, “so he’s not your type?” He further said that maybe you see your partner as a really good friend than romantically... but I KNOW that my partner and I meet each other’s romantic needs. But I was still triggered regardless and am now questioning everything again. And it just felt like my thoughts were true all over again. I couldn't help, but feel this huge drop in my chest and like my breathing getting shallow - some of my typical anxious reactions. But it's making me convinced that I really don't like my partner and can't seem to pinpoint why I remember liking him and my mind is convincing me that I’m only in it for the things he does and says, which isn’t even often. Makes me thinks we can only be friends and not the lovers we are now. And quite frankly, my mind is a shitshow and I don’t know what’s right or not. What a freaking struggle bus.

Yea... it just seemed like a huge trigger for me, but isn’t that what ERP is kind of going to be like? Exposing your triggers?

@Jewel You have to have a special ERP session when you will know what is she going to tell you and you have a hierarchie of triggers so you know that Today I am exposed to this one

@Jewel It is for a certain amount of time

@Jewel And you aren't just caught off guard while telling the therapist about your obsessions

It literally makes me doubt my own thoughts and why I’m even dating my partner and my happiness with him (that is so hard to find nowadays bc it feels like I’m dating anxiety and rOCD than him)

I would assume it's OCD specialist as he works on CBT with her

@Daria Alexandrovna When I was in highschool and got hospitalized for depression, Cbt was the main technique of choice for all the people in the program so im not sure if it varies by state but this was not a ocd ward. We're talking cognitive behavior therapy correct?

@whatadooo Yes, correct. We'll I know that it's used to cure OCD but I didn't know it was used for something else! Maybe it is the case.

I’ve told him before that ROCD was a thing, but he was kind of skeptical that it was a real thing, so I’m not sure he has any OCD treatment experience under his belt.

@Jewel That's bad, you shouldn't go to that therapist I think, he can harm you and he already did