does anyone else feel like they know they’re denying the truth??

Same here, but I love my partner and I don’t want to come out. I just want the questioning to go away, I only want to like men and if I didn’t itd feel like a betrayal to my partner. He’s told he’d support me if I did like girls as well, but I only want to like him :/

@Pinklotus Way before I had the thought that I need to come out the past two guys I was with I was scared to tell them what was going on because I feared they’d leave me😭 in my defense the first guy I was with after my ex I didn’t even know ocd was and I felt like I related to hocd then when I was with the last guy I was with I told him I think I had ocd but I kept having this fear that he’d leave me because he was gonna realize my triggers eventually:/

@Ximena Awww girl, I promise you deserve someone who understands those thoughts and wouldn’t leave you🥺 but yeah it’s tough I was terrified to tell my partner about these thoughts because I didn’t want him to think I’m bi or that I actually like girls or that it would mean something about us :/

@Pinklotus Yeah it’s just all scary and confusing because all of this started with a what of thought after I had a conversation with a girl... so it’s like do I have ocd or not??😭

@Ximena *if

@Ximena Mine did too! I was texting a new friend and I was happy to have someone to talk to because I don’t have a lot of friends but she was also very pretty and so I thought “ do I like her? “ “does this mean I’m gay?”

@Pinklotus I feel so understood rn you have no idea😭 I literally look up on google and YouTube how to know if you’re bi. And I freak out sometimes because there’s people that are late bloomers so I worry that may be me too there’s just too much uncertainty...

i feel like the only person i need to tell is my boyfriend it’s weird it’s like i’m actually denying the truth there’s a little part of me that’s like “you know you’re denying the truth”

@holley For me personally I fear telling him because I fear being ostracized even though he’s pretty mature and understanding but I’m still scared because he’ll be the first guy I tell...

But it all feels so real

@cnv I know it does it wouldn’t be scary if it didn’t, I have a girlfriend as well so I can relate to all these situations but in my unprofessional opinion I think the “urge” to come out is just for relief of the anxiety etc

@Gosu123 So the urge to come out is part of ocd?

@Ximena Well as I said I’m not a professional but it is common for people to have this urge and In my opinion it’s for relief

@Gosu123 Exactly!! Everytime I “come out” in my head it is not because it is true, but just to get relief