km113456
- Date posted
- 4y
mollyyymollyyy
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- 4y
I get this so bad the last 6 weeks or so, its hell isn't it? And I dont feel any love because I guess I'm too caught up in constant stress and worry and then it makes it feel more real. X
km113456km113456
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- 4y
Yeah 1 million percent, but then I remember feeling all good feelings before I got caught up in the OCD, we will get through it!x
mollyyymollyyy
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- 4y
Exactly, this is my 3rd bout of this type of ocd now, its actual hell. I dont know why my bf puts up with it because I don't even want affection or anything atm because then I question my reaction to it. This is the longest bout yet but got my first session on Tuesday so fingers crossed. Hope you're OK xx
halleanobleshalleanobles
- Date posted
- 4y
You’re thoughts are ocd just telling you you’re biggest fears over and over again, if you question it’s ocd than it most likely is, try not putting things on forums like this because it’s a form of reassurance seeking, which reinforces the negative intrusive thoughts, just let the thoughts sit and let them be, don’t do anything that acts as a compulsion (eg. reassurance seeking, researching online, checking and comparing your relationship to others). This is one of the hardest things to do but it needs to be done, believe me I’ve been there, just let them be, it causes anxiety but the anxiety is what needs to be normalised, you will be okay and see the light at the end of the tunnel, try and find a therapist specialised in ocd x
Daria AlexandrovnaDaria Alexan...
- Date posted
- 4y
Everyone feels like it's real. 10/10 real, like. But you are doing words by trying to figure it out, it's not going to work, trust me. This way you just tell your brain that 'yeah, there is danger, because I am trying to escape it. so give me more thoughts so I don't get caught up in this danger' when you don't engage, your brain still thinks there is a threat and you are ignoring it. So it is making you even more scared than before, so you would perform a compulsion like you would usually
km113456km113456
- Date posted
- 4y
Yeah that makes sense so hopefully if I stop doing the compulsions eventually the thoughts will calm down, I’m pushing myself to do a workout and spend time with my dog so I’m not ruminating
Daria AlexandrovnaDaria Alexan...
- Date posted
- 4y
That's very good. It's going to feel more real and the thoughts will flood you at first, but just resist
Daria AlexandrovnaDaria Alexan...
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- 4y
It's really hard but this is how you recover
km113456km113456
- Date posted
- 4y
Fingers crossed x
km113456km113456
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- 4y
Yeah I’m having my first proper session next week at the moment I’m trying to focus on stopping ruminations that’s what I got told on the intro session x
km113456km113456
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- 4y
Hope you’re okay to x
km113456km113456
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- 4y
It feels so real cause I’m not even trying to reassure myself that it’s my OCD I’m just trying to not do anything but it’s making me think it’s real feelings I need to act on and it’s making me super anxious and guilty and upset
km113456km113456
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- 4y
It just feels so hard when it feels so real :( and then I get anxious I somehow need to act on the feelings and get guilt etc but Thankyou I’m going to try let it pass x
halleanobleshalleanobles
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- 4y
You wouldn’t be worrying or questioning if you live your partner, if they’re attractive enough, if the relationship is good etc if you really felt those things. These are just your biggest fears getting into your head because ocd is horrible like that. You will be okay x
halleanobleshalleanobles
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- 4y
Yeh it does feel so real it’s horrible, I’ve been there, things will be okay soon x
km113456km113456
- Date posted
- 4y
Thankyou x
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Conquering_OCD
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- Date posted
- 25w
Knowing the difference
Does anyone have any advice for how to know the difference between ocd and real feelings/thoughts? Sometimes an intrusive thought will come in and I immediately know it’s ridiculous and I can just leave it alone and it won’t bother me but other times I really really don’t know. It’s when ocd hijacks and twists my real feelings and thoughts and tries to manipulate me into believing they’re something they’re not or something that doesn’t align with my true morals or intentions. But since it’s twisting and mixing with real feelings I get so confused and scared. Everything gets jumbled and I feel like I can’t trust myself or my own mind. Yet other times and other topics I can laugh off and push away just fine. Make it make sense. And then I start to think well maybe I don’t have ocd at all and I’m just in denial because I don’t want to accept that these scary/concerning things are true about myself. Or maybe that’s just the ocd talking.
Juris
- Date posted
- 20w
It’s so scary because it feels real
I have really bed harming intrusive thoughts and sometimes feels like it’s feeling! The thoughts happening every day and the hardest part is that I’m testing my self in head all the time if that’s what I am or want!!! Also, so many times feels like I’m been tricking myself and doctor or people and maybe I don’t have OCD, just that maybe it’s me really!!!! How can I know who I am really 🥹???!!??
rosie_rosie
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- 20w
So I’m really scared that I won’t be able to differentiate my thoughts, real thoughts, to the intrusive ones.
So pretty much I’ve been dealing with intrusive thoughts my entire life, I had no idea could’ve been symptom of OCD until maybe a year ago , I have this fear right now that I don’t actually love my fiancé and I’m not attracted to men. I am attracted to men. Let me be clear. I’m not attracted to females. I never have been and I never will be. But it’s one of the scariest thoughts I’ve ever had that I don’t actually care about the person that I would sacrifice anything for that I would do anything for. He’s pretty much the closest family that I have and I just wanna be with him for the rest of my life. A couple months ago was that I just didn’t care at all, and I didn’t have any feelings and everything that I felt was me being fake in that nothing was real. But I eventually got over that and the new thought is that I’m actually gay even though I know I’m not. And in the world we live in now where it’s be yourself be you if it comes across your mind. That’s the obvious truth. Be yourself… It’s kind of scary to think about. I just want it to leave me alone. I’m actually so scared that eventually I’ll believe it because some thoughts that I’ve learned were intrusive. I ended up starting to believe and it turned into a whole catastrophe for my life. I met this girl and she felt a certain way about her husband and then she told me that eventually I’ll feel that way and ever since then I just I haven’t gotten over this fear that I’m gonna end up feeling the same way she is. Also, I recently got over a few themes. I’m not ready to share, but I’m so proud that I got over those and I just I’m waiting for this one to leave me alone and it’s not and I’m starting to get really scared that it’s true and I don’t want it to be true. and just to be very clear I don’t care who you love what you love who you like what you identify as because you can in fact be yourself but this just doesn’t feel like me. I’m genuinely reaching out to try to get help for this because now it’s messing with our personal life. We’ve never argued so much in our entire relationship and now I realize that it’s mainly my fault because I’m detaching myself from all emotion just so that I can get over this thought I’m detaching myself from all intimacy and that’s even scarier because what if it’s not me detaching myself and it’s me just not being attracted that’s another thought I’ve hadI’ve gone all long enough so thanks.
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