I was crying so bad, because I feel like I could actually act on my thoughts. I don’t want to, but I feel like a part of me is capable of doing it. When I’m around my family I get a feeling of disturb running through my body. This disturbing feeling, I feel it all the time. My head replays horrible scenarios that feel so damn real, they feel like if they were reality, and they feel like they are going to happen any second. I instantly think, do you want that to happen? Is that really what you want? And sometimes I just can’t prove that I don’t, and that is just too much for me to handle. I feel like a perverse monster takes over me. It’s hard for me to believe that I’m not what my thoughts say. I hate these horrible thoughts, they are so terrible and terrifying, but why do they feel like they have a big possibility of happening? Why can’t I be sure that I won’t act on my thoughts? I don’t want to act on my thoughts but why do i feel like a part of me does? I feel like they could really happen please help, the uncertainty is killing me...

Hi, I have this too!! Especially when I’m in a loop with them and around my family. It’s soooo awful! And yet it is OCD 100 %. I am also an alcoholic and I go to AA and I say hi my name is Liz and I am alcoholic. My recent therapist suggested I say hi my name is Liz and I have these horrible OCD thoughts. If I can own this definition, take a breath when in my worst thoughts and say hey I know what I have, I have OCD and this is the exact definition. I need to accept what I have and work on it with techniques. I have to work really hard and I think we all do because we need to learn how to sit with the discomfort. I think a great thing to realize is it’s the reaction in our minds to these thoughts that is the worst. Clare weeks said something amazing about OCD she said ...‘don’t just do something! Sit there and let time pass.’ I repeat this now when crazy thoughts come up and it helps get me through. The more you can sit with the discomfort of your triggers the better you will even though it is so uncomfortable! I’m just trying to get used to that discomfort and it will pass. The key is also not to keep engaging and talking back to your mind since OCD isn’t a real thought or a realistic one especially when we hate it so much!! Hope this helps. You’re not alone 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

So glad I’m not alone in this. I feel this 100%

You are not alone!! Definitely OCD ...this is the exact definition and you’re in absolutely the right place!!🌷I also practice creating space between the thoughts and catching them then they first come up..,I find it really important not to make them important otherwise they drag me in and take me in stupid circles ....just keep doing what you were you were doing activity wise or conversation wise and let them float like clouds past your mind. It takes practice and awareness but you can do it. 🙏🏻🙏🏻

But the discomfort is so hard, when I’m in a bad moment that’s the hardest and the anxiety from it, but I am also practicing to allow the discomfort. It will pass and the more you recognize the patterns the easier it gets!! I’m just learning all this, like a new language, so crazy!