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Hi, I have this too!! Especially when I’m in a loop with them and around my family. It’s soooo awful! And yet it is OCD 100 %. I am also an alcoholic and I go to AA and I say hi my name is Liz and I am alcoholic. My recent therapist suggested I say hi my name is Liz and I have these horrible OCD thoughts. If I can own this definition, take a breath when in my worst thoughts and say hey I know what I have, I have OCD and this is the exact definition. I need to accept what I have and work on it with techniques. I have to work really hard and I think we all do because we need to learn how to sit with the discomfort. I think a great thing to realize is it’s the reaction in our minds to these thoughts that is the worst. Clare weeks said something amazing about OCD she said ...‘don’t just do something! Sit there and let time pass.’ I repeat this now when crazy thoughts come up and it helps get me through. The more you can sit with the discomfort of your triggers the better you will even though it is so uncomfortable! I’m just trying to get used to that discomfort and it will pass. The key is also not to keep engaging and talking back to your mind since OCD isn’t a real thought or a realistic one especially when we hate it so much!! Hope this helps. You’re not alone 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
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Thank you so much, glad I’m not the only one but I’m sorry you’re going through the same thing. I haven’t been diagnosed with OCD yet, but I feel like I have a lot of symptoms. I feel like a hypocrite for crying, I feel like it was all fake bc my intentions are to actually harm my family. But they’re not, even when it feels like the opposite. I’m still scared because I don’t know if it could happen or not...
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So glad I’m not alone in this. I feel this 100%
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You are not alone!! Definitely OCD ...this is the exact definition and you’re in absolutely the right place!!🌷I also practice creating space between the thoughts and catching them then they first come up..,I find it really important not to make them important otherwise they drag me in and take me in stupid circles ....just keep doing what you were you were doing activity wise or conversation wise and let them float like clouds past your mind. It takes practice and awareness but you can do it. 🙏🏻🙏🏻
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But the discomfort is so hard, when I’m in a bad moment that’s the hardest and the anxiety from it, but I am also practicing to allow the discomfort. It will pass and the more you recognize the patterns the easier it gets!! I’m just learning all this, like a new language, so crazy!
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- 21w
Recently ive been getting very scared to even be angry bc of the horrible thoughts I have and it feels even more real when I'm angry or even annoyed. Rn I was not even super annoyed at my neice but I felt a twinge of annoyance since she went up to my face and was yelling at me while I was resting on the bed and I got this image of doing something bad to her and I felt my hand twitch very little. I got nervous and felt relieved when her dad told her to stop screaming for no reason. I've been hyperfocusing on my bodily reactions (mainly my hands or how I'm feeling like did I just enjoy that? Was I considering???) And I've noticed the small twitches whenever I'm mad or annoyed and it's scaring me so bad! Like do I want to act out? Am I holding back??? I used to not even twitch at all when mad and I felt 100% sure I'll never act out but now it feels like I don't know bc what do these twitches mean?, I do know I don't want to ever act out but it's so scary. Recently whenever I feel angry once the argument is over I cry really bad after I'm alone and I pray so i never want or act out. And when the annoyance passes I also feel so guilty and want to stay away. Im scared these are real urges and i research for many many hours to make sure they arent urges or impulses and i also tend to ask chatgpt or here if the anxiety gets so bad 😕
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- 20w
I'm at my college and don't feel like being here. I didn't even want to come here. I woke up with anxiety bc i feel like i need to solve this. I had a bad stomach ache when i arrived to school and still havent even eaten breakfast yet bc i feel like i have to solve this. Im just so worried bc i have harm thoughts daily. If i could i would remove this! I dont want to think anymore. Its just, how do I know i dont have real urges when I'm feeling a negative emotion like anger or disappointment or annoyance? Im worried EVERY time i feel a negative emotion. Yesterday I was playing video games with my neice (we are close in age range) and she made us lose. She started blaming me and I guess i felt a little annoyed, it really wasnt my fault (dumb mini argument it was more playful since we started laughing but it was a bit annoying). Anyway i got a harm thought while feeling annoyed of me getting off the couch and lunging at her to attack. I immediately look at my bodily reaction and I tense up to stay as still as possible. My stomach was hurting and i wanted to leave as fast as possible. I stood up and turned off the game and said i was tired while making sure to stay back from her (and i had my hands away and stiff) but i felt so uneasy. I laid I bed and felt sad and heavy. And i kept getting thoughts that said "íts only a matter of time before you can't take it anymore". I started to reassurance seek using ai to ask if i was about to or if they are real urges or thoughts i mean until i eventually fell asleep in the middle of the compulsion. Im just so worried, what if I act out impulsevly one day? I dont want to! But what if when feeling a negative emotion, i suddenly dont care and do something? I really dont want to! I dont even want to feel negative emotions anymore since they trigger the thoughts and I dont want to think about any of that. As a result i tend to avoid my family as much as possible bc they are annoying sometimes. I just wish i was all alone sometimes so i wont get any more thoughts and so everyone can be safe. I usually just stay in bed under my blankets all day long to avoid my family and pets. I am constantly uncomfortable. I miss when i would never think any of this. Living life has become very scary for me now. 😞
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- 18w
I am so scared of everything .Of my thoughts.If I am a good person.Years ago I didnt help a kid who was in danger.Since then I started to have terrible thoughts :( i am so terrified.I still have these thoughts and I am scared it means something about me .I really dont want to hurt anyone and I want to help that kid now but idk how I can now.Also I am scared I betray everyone.I still have terrible thoughts and when I am with someone I care is worse...idk why.For example I started to talk with a collegue and he is really nice to me.I told him some things abt me( not the intrusive thoughts) and he was supportive.I have no idea if I will tell anyone abt my thoughts..and bcs of that I feel like I lie to them and betray them.I really want to enjoy my life and be happy and support people( especially because I didnt help that kid then).I want to live up to my morals now but I feel like I lie and manipulate people bcs I am a monster.Is this normal? To feel this way? What can I do? What if I am my worst fear and just cant accept it?!
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