I have literally been doing compulsions all day. I am beyond sad, I have cried countless times. I literally feel gay and that I have to go off and be happy with a women to get over this. I’m so sad and want to die. I refuse to think that my life is going to be this constant sadness.

Thank you for comment. It feels so real right now and I feel like I’m just scared to go through the process of coming out and changing my life to be a lesbian. But I can’t deal with this suffering anymore so a part of me is dying to do that to see if all of this will go away

Great read. I’m just having trouble excepting that I’m gay. Because fears do have a possibility of coming true

Sorry to interrupt the post! Is this book for people with ocd? I have soocd too and if this book will help? Scared it’ll trigger me haha!

@Anonymous I don’t know what you mean by that. Its either you suffer from ocd or you don’t. Whatever the theme, if you suffer from ocd, the theme means nothing. I suggest that you reach out to a trained professional

@jonathan18 Hi, sorry I just meant to say that part of treatment is accepting that your fear may or may not be true and living with the uncertainty and is the part I have trouble excepting

@Legallyocd I don’t want to ruin your process but for me it feels like it is more about accepting the idea of doubt rather than accepting that you might be gay. Like when a trigger comes up, I try to say to my self « oh there is doubt and the mind doesn’t like it at all- but I’ll sit with it. (And I TRY to sit with it) Likewise, if your theme would be fear of catching aids, I don’t believe that it is productive to say to yourself « oh I accept that I might have aids » or « oh I accept that I might actually be a serial killer, or a pedophile », or whatever twisted idea ocd comes up with. If feel like it is more helpful to try to sit with the general concept of doubt. Anyways, it’s my view on it.

@jonathan18 Thank you for that tip! I mind automatically goes into analytical thinking of why is there a doubt in the first place so I guess that’s what I need to accept.

Thank you for your help! I’m still hesitant to read it haha! Googling and reading articles was a huge compulsion for me, I’ll add it to my list for erp tho 😂

@MelodyOCD It is not at all triggering, it details a list of symptoms that people who suffer from osocd experience.

@jonathan18 Oh I seee! I used to use articles like that for reassurance a lot, however now I’m scared I’ll read it and not relate to the symptoms and that I’ll find out it’s not ocd lol, it’s all one big circle of scary 😂

@MelodyOCD Aaaaannnnd this is why you have ocd 😂😂😂 we are funny people sometimes. I deal with stuff like this the same way. Incredible.

@jonathan18 Hahah it is pretty weird how our brains do this to us! 😂