TW: Incest OCD, POCD, suicide Hi, I have been struggeling with OCD for a while. It started last summer with POCD, later I developed Incest OCD. It started small with my cousin, then it developed when I saw a picture of my dad, and he looked good in that picture or something? When I thought that it scared me to death, same thing happened with my mom. I got rid of the POCD and Incest OCD around my dad. But things are still pretty bad around my mom. I know that if my OCD turns out to be real, the worst thing is only that I can fall in love with family, and I'll get over that, I know, in theory I have nothing to be afraid of. I also know that if someone I cared about told me that they're crushing on a family member or a kid I wouldn't judge them. They can't help feeling that way right? Thing is, whenever I'm scared I feel like killing myself, not as an intrusive thought, I actually want to die. If anyone can help me, share tips, or anything to help me bring my anxiety levels down, please please help me. I'm so scared I wanna die.

POCD

[Deleted]

Date posted: 4y

Comment deleted by user

idkausername

Date posted: 4y

Thank you.. thank you so so much you have no idea how much I needed this thank you :') <3

idkausername

Date posted: 4y

@Kendy228g Thank you that is so sweet. You could call me Kyle, are you sure God would help me tho? I'm not religious at all.. not that I don't respect religious people, just not religious myself.

idkausername

Date posted: 4y

@Kendy228g Thank you, it means a lot to me. You can also always talk to me :)

rosecoloredgirl

Date posted: 4y

Notice how when you're having an OCD attack it feels so real and scary while in the moment? It'll pass, it's so hard but it will. We cannot give you reassurance you aren't and you won't be whatever or do whatever you're scared of. We don't know you and we have to accept the uncertainty. That's how you treat OCD.

idkausername

Date posted: 4y

But the uncertainty scares me so bad.. how do I deal with that?

[Deleted]

Date posted: 4y

Comment deleted by user

idkausername

Date posted: 4y

That's what I'm here for, if it triggers me or if something I say triggers you please say so though.

[Deleted]

Date posted: 4y

Comment deleted by user

idkausername

Date posted: 4y

I will :)

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond