I get anxiety when people mention gay or lesbians in a conversation, even more when there is something negative against it. I feel like when I say something defending them it’s because I’m secretly gay and already anxious about me hiding it. Then fear I sound like I’m a lesbian. I think this could go towards one of my core fears being fear of judgment and others opinion. But then that sounds even more like I’m really just a lesbian

Yes this and almost like bringing up the convo about this or relationships to see what others think and feel to see if it’s similar? And almost a type of “confession” like getting it off my chest. But so scared I come off as sounding gay or that I dont want to be with my bf

@Corie Definitely compulsive for me so I try not to!

@Corie Yes exactly. I talked to my friend about it to get it off my chest and I was nervous she thought I was like into her and that’s why I was saying it

@Corie And I like want to tell my mom about it to get it off my chest because then ill feel like ive confessed but like id be confessing abt something im not (i think ugh😐)

@jenna123 I did this in the very beginning, told all of my close friends, my sisters, and my mom! It was like a sense of confessing and seeing if anyone had the same thoughts as me. I deeply feared they all thought I was gay after I said it though and took it wrong but they don’t! Now I just don’t talk about it with them in detail to avoid any reassurance seeking or confessing

@Corie Thanks for opening up omg. I feel like I do the same with reassuring and over sharing it’s hard to not look for validation with everything ugh

@jenna123 I completely understand, most people on here will!