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I had the exact same experience but i didn’t realize that it’s a part of OCD also !! I still doubt about OCD till now since am diagnosed with (more then year) like (do i have it do ? What if what if what if ) a serie of infinity ♾ cycles in ly head i was suffering without knowing that it’s OCD !
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I totally do this. I’ve researched like every mental disorder and illness trying to diagnose myself and stuff. Multiple personality tests as well(Myers Briggs, enneagram, big five) I obsess over how different I feel. It causes me a lot of anxiety and recently I’ve been rly into reading about ocd and watching YouTube videos and it furthers my feelings of isolation. I also constantly think “do I even have ocd” and doubt myself rip
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Oh god , like we do have the Same OCD !! Happy to hear that someone have the same symptoms like me !
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@TheChakib Same here omg. It gets exhausting and when I’m in public I’ll get in my head and overthink if everything I do is normal
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@jenna123 Also me , in my case i get fear if an obsession comes out then stops me to talk live and scanrio of other stuff wich make me in panic , like when i am in public with someone when i start to talk in a serious subject i have like an eye watching me like a stress inside a fear of what if the obsession shows up so it makes me like a warrior in war position, big distress waiting for an obsession wich i don’t even know what it could be !!
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@TheChakib Omg. Same. That’s. Exactly. How. I. Get.
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@jenna123 Wow , i thought that it’s GAD cause lately i have been diagnosed with a false diagnostic of GAD i thought it was GAD , now you are making me rethink about it i can’t understand how it could be OCD really weird
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@jenna123 Can we talk in private ? I think we have alot of experience to share !
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@TheChakib Yes ofc message me!
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@jenna123 Can we send messeges on NOCD ? I don’t think so , if not follow me on instagram 5skc7
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Ruminating is actually a compulsion too! And it, like all other compulsions, can be resisted. Here are my favorite articles on this topic: - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/understanding-pure-o-you-are-not-having-intrusive-thoughts-all-day-you-are-ruminating/ - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/rumination-is-a-compulsion-not-an-obsession-and-that-means-you-have-to-stop/ - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/ These are from an ocd specialist who focuses mainly on dealing with rumination.
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Thank you for all of these articles! I didn’t realize that rumination was a compulsion. 🤔 that makes a lot of sense though!
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I feel like this!
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Wow thank you all for commenting!! I feel so understood and less alone in this now!
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We all do 🖤🤗
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It is not the thoughts or urges that scare me anymore. It is the way I feel like I’ve absorbed the compulsions into my identity :( I am doing them so automatically that it feels like I am choosing them freely and they’re me. and because of that, it feels like I AM the OCD now, not just someone with OCD. I think I’m just deeply trapped in a loop. I was trying to survive unbearable fear so I started scanning. Then I started pre-scanning. Then checking if I pre-scanned. Then I check how I feel during all that. I run to beat my OCD to the “punchline” (intrusive thought, urge, sensation) because I’m so scared all the time. So scared that I don’t even feel it anymore. I feel numb and all that’s left is this jittery residue and numbness. Now it’s all tangled together in a huge knot. I feel so extremely lost. I think this may just be meta OCD, but I’ve never ever felt so gone before :( I’m really scared.
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I am having a real hard time with meta-ocd and thoughts about feeling depressed and be like this forever. Or the thought I never feel normal again or never feel connected to normal life things and normal people. The intrusive thoughts are here like the whole day and they are all about my mental health. And I obsess about how I feel and what I feel with everything I do. It’s so hard to explain. If someone- a therapist or someone who dealt with this has tips or word of encouragement right now, that would me great. I feel like everything I want to learn myself about ocd and coming to this forum also is a bit compulsive. It is so confusing 🫤
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i’ve unfortunately fallen into the cycle of trying to figure out my thoughts and find answers as to why i feel so distressed. this still pertains to the situation regarding changing my room for those reading who have seen my multiple posts over the last few days. i’ve been so distressed and in so much panic about it. i’m also panicking over my other room looking so different from when i left it. it’s been making me feel crazy because to me there’s no reason for my anxiety to latch so hard onto something that seems so minuscule. i was thinking i was having anxiety over change, but it’s like symptoms of ocd too that’s making it really hard for me to let go. SO i started thinking maybe it was perfectionism ocd? i’ve realized over time that i do compulsions to where things have to feel “just right”, but i also do that with any environment i’m in. like it HAS to feel cozy to me and provide me comfort in order for me to feel at ease. and this change is causing me to panic because there’s something wrong that i can’t find an answer to. maybe the different colored carpet? but it’s also more than that it feels like. however, now it’s spreading into other areas of my house where i’ve always been fine in and possibly to just any area i’m in at all. hence why it’s making me feel crazy because there’s no reason for me to be THIS distressed over that as i’ve never really had this problem before. and when i did it would last maybe an hour to a couple of days at most, but this has been going for over 2 weeks with my really bad anxiety being this week. i’m doing a little better, but it’s still hard when i can feel that panic waiting for me to acknowledge and just engulf me in the ocd cycle. i’m also analyzing basically any feeling i have so i just feel off in general and like i’m going insane. i’ve been so hyper focused on how i feel and that will send me spiraling too. multiple themes then start coming in like existential ocd and fear of solipsism. not to mention my harm and contamination ocd that just adds on when i’m this vulnerable. then i worry if no one is real, then no one feels the way i do. or just in general that what if no one feels the way i do. honestly, i think being out of college and in my house with nothing to do is causing me too much time with my thoughts. which is why i’m so distressed about everything that pops into my brain.
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