Anyone else have meta-ocd (obsessing about ocd itself)? I consider it for me the ultimate OCD fail safe. It keeps me doing the compulsions even if the distress goes away. I do most stuff just not to go through the constant rumination of ‘do I have ocd?’ and mental review of my entire life. I believe every thing I say and do now is fake/a lie/made up. I feel nothing but mentally I’m frustrated. Every time I do an ‘OCD-like’ behavior and do not experience uncomfortable emotions I doubt if I’m making it up for attention or misunderstood my symptoms. I am so distant from my emotions. I’m probably just ‘scared’ that I won’t be distressed> don’t have ocd> biggest fraud on this rotating rock. Sorry just had to vent. 😑

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Chakib SK

Date posted: 4y

I had the exact same experience but i didn’t realize that it’s a part of OCD also !! I still doubt about OCD till now since am diagnosed with (more then year) like (do i have it do ? What if what if what if ) a serie of infinity ♾ cycles in ly head i was suffering without knowing that it’s OCD !

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

I totally do this. I’ve researched like every mental disorder and illness trying to diagnose myself and stuff. Multiple personality tests as well(Myers Briggs, enneagram, big five) I obsess over how different I feel. It causes me a lot of anxiety and recently I’ve been rly into reading about ocd and watching YouTube videos and it furthers my feelings of isolation. I also constantly think “do I even have ocd” and doubt myself rip

Chakib SK

Date posted: 4y

Oh god , like we do have the Same OCD !! Happy to hear that someone have the same symptoms like me !

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@TheChakib Same here omg. It gets exhausting and when I’m in public I’ll get in my head and overthink if everything I do is normal

Chakib SK

Date posted: 4y

@jenna123 Also me , in my case i get fear if an obsession comes out then stops me to talk live and scanrio of other stuff wich make me in panic , like when i am in public with someone when i start to talk in a serious subject i have like an eye watching me like a stress inside a fear of what if the obsession shows up so it makes me like a warrior in war position, big distress waiting for an obsession wich i don’t even know what it could be !!

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@TheChakib Omg. Same. That’s. Exactly. How. I. Get.

Chakib SK

Date posted: 4y

@jenna123 Wow , i thought that it’s GAD cause lately i have been diagnosed with a false diagnostic of GAD i thought it was GAD , now you are making me rethink about it i can’t understand how it could be OCD really weird

Chakib SK

Date posted: 4y

@jenna123 Can we talk in private ? I think we have alot of experience to share !

Anonymous

Date posted: 4y

@TheChakib Yes ofc message me!

Chakib SK

Date posted: 4y

@jenna123 Can we send messeges on NOCD ? I don’t think so , if not follow me on instagram 5skc7

pureolife

Date posted: 4y

Ruminating is actually a compulsion too! And it, like all other compulsions, can be resisted. Here are my favorite articles on this topic: - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/understanding-pure-o-you-are-not-having-intrusive-thoughts-all-day-you-are-ruminating/ - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/rumination-is-a-compulsion-not-an-obsession-and-that-means-you-have-to-stop/ - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/ These are from an ocd specialist who focuses mainly on dealing with rumination.

jojobahnojo

Date posted: 4y

Thank you for all of these articles! I didn’t realize that rumination was a compulsion. 🤔 that makes a lot of sense though!

Gosu123

Date posted: 4y

I feel like this!

jojobahnojo

Date posted: 4y

Wow thank you all for commenting!! I feel so understood and less alone in this now!

Chakib SK

Date posted: 4y

We all do 🖤🤗

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