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- jojobahnojo
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I had the exact same experience but i didn’t realize that it’s a part of OCD also !! I still doubt about OCD till now since am diagnosed with (more then year) like (do i have it do ? What if what if what if ) a serie of infinity ♾ cycles in ly head i was suffering without knowing that it’s OCD !
I totally do this. I’ve researched like every mental disorder and illness trying to diagnose myself and stuff. Multiple personality tests as well(Myers Briggs, enneagram, big five) I obsess over how different I feel. It causes me a lot of anxiety and recently I’ve been rly into reading about ocd and watching YouTube videos and it furthers my feelings of isolation. I also constantly think “do I even have ocd” and doubt myself rip
Oh god , like we do have the Same OCD !! Happy to hear that someone have the same symptoms like me !
@TheChakib Same here omg. It gets exhausting and when I’m in public I’ll get in my head and overthink if everything I do is normal
@jenna123 Also me , in my case i get fear if an obsession comes out then stops me to talk live and scanrio of other stuff wich make me in panic , like when i am in public with someone when i start to talk in a serious subject i have like an eye watching me like a stress inside a fear of what if the obsession shows up so it makes me like a warrior in war position, big distress waiting for an obsession wich i don’t even know what it could be !!
@TheChakib Omg. Same. That’s. Exactly. How. I. Get.
@jenna123 Wow , i thought that it’s GAD cause lately i have been diagnosed with a false diagnostic of GAD i thought it was GAD , now you are making me rethink about it i can’t understand how it could be OCD really weird
@jenna123 Can we talk in private ? I think we have alot of experience to share !
@TheChakib Yes ofc message me!
@jenna123 Can we send messeges on NOCD ? I don’t think so , if not follow me on instagram 5skc7
Ruminating is actually a compulsion too! And it, like all other compulsions, can be resisted. Here are my favorite articles on this topic: - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/understanding-pure-o-you-are-not-having-intrusive-thoughts-all-day-you-are-ruminating/ - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/rumination-is-a-compulsion-not-an-obsession-and-that-means-you-have-to-stop/ - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/ These are from an ocd specialist who focuses mainly on dealing with rumination.
Thank you for all of these articles! I didn’t realize that rumination was a compulsion. 🤔 that makes a lot of sense though!
I feel like this!
Wow thank you all for commenting!! I feel so understood and less alone in this now!
We all do 🖤🤗
So I have OCD about OCD itself. Like I will be talking about harm OCD or POCD that I struggle/struggled with as a kid and it come up sometimes now but it was rlly bad as a kid (I’m 16 now) and then I’ll worry “what if you don’t have harm ocd or pocd, and when you have pocd you can’t get the images and thoughts out of your head but because it doesn’t make you feel as physically sick as sexuality OCD what if I’m making my POCD and harm OCD up for attention?! Can anyone relate...
my biggest fear is what if i don't actually have ocd and get exposed as a fraud. im afraid i might have been living a lie the whole time. i keep thinking that im not as ill as others here. i feel like i don't deserve attention, it's like im unconsciously invalidating myself all the time and j can't help but think that im an impostor in disguise. that im just doing this for attention. that i just want to be mentally ill to feel like i fit in somewhere. when i show a new ocd symptom im afraid that oh im probably just copying something that i saw off this app here because i want to feel like i truly do have ocd. i know i most likely have it but im so stuck in this loop of doubt. my ocd isn't as severe as it was in the beginning so that makes me feel even more invalid and i have developed impostor syndrome over the years.
As the title says I think I might have a new theme coming and it’s meta :( lately I’ve been ruminating on the thought I’ll never get over ocd and even though I’ve made some progress it tells me it doesn’t matter as it’ll always be the same or that I’m in denial with things,or if I don’t constantly keep doing perfectly good with my exposures I’ll always keep going backwards, etc etc. and it doesn’t help it partners with the other themes I have but idk all day I’ve been overwhelmed with these thoughts and last night I had a meltdown over it. Idk what to really do cause I can’t stop ruminating on it and tomorrow is my last day of school and I wanna make it good but I’m afraid my thoughts won’t stop even then or I’ll never actually improve.
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