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I had the exact same experience but i didn’t realize that it’s a part of OCD also !! I still doubt about OCD till now since am diagnosed with (more then year) like (do i have it do ? What if what if what if ) a serie of infinity ♾ cycles in ly head i was suffering without knowing that it’s OCD !
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I totally do this. I’ve researched like every mental disorder and illness trying to diagnose myself and stuff. Multiple personality tests as well(Myers Briggs, enneagram, big five) I obsess over how different I feel. It causes me a lot of anxiety and recently I’ve been rly into reading about ocd and watching YouTube videos and it furthers my feelings of isolation. I also constantly think “do I even have ocd” and doubt myself rip
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Oh god , like we do have the Same OCD !! Happy to hear that someone have the same symptoms like me !
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@TheChakib Same here omg. It gets exhausting and when I’m in public I’ll get in my head and overthink if everything I do is normal
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@jenna123 Also me , in my case i get fear if an obsession comes out then stops me to talk live and scanrio of other stuff wich make me in panic , like when i am in public with someone when i start to talk in a serious subject i have like an eye watching me like a stress inside a fear of what if the obsession shows up so it makes me like a warrior in war position, big distress waiting for an obsession wich i don’t even know what it could be !!
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@TheChakib Omg. Same. That’s. Exactly. How. I. Get.
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@jenna123 Wow , i thought that it’s GAD cause lately i have been diagnosed with a false diagnostic of GAD i thought it was GAD , now you are making me rethink about it i can’t understand how it could be OCD really weird
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@jenna123 Can we talk in private ? I think we have alot of experience to share !
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@TheChakib Yes ofc message me!
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@jenna123 Can we send messeges on NOCD ? I don’t think so , if not follow me on instagram 5skc7
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Ruminating is actually a compulsion too! And it, like all other compulsions, can be resisted. Here are my favorite articles on this topic: - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/understanding-pure-o-you-are-not-having-intrusive-thoughts-all-day-you-are-ruminating/ - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/rumination-is-a-compulsion-not-an-obsession-and-that-means-you-have-to-stop/ - https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/how-to-stop-ruminating/ These are from an ocd specialist who focuses mainly on dealing with rumination.
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Thank you for all of these articles! I didn’t realize that rumination was a compulsion. 🤔 that makes a lot of sense though!
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I feel like this!
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Wow thank you all for commenting!! I feel so understood and less alone in this now!
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We all do 🖤🤗
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Does anyone else find that their compulsions actually make their OCD/obsession worse? I don’t mean in the obvious way, like that it strengthens the OCD cycle, I mean in the way that when I perform my compulsions, they make my anxiety so much worse in the moment. My main compulsions are ruminating, arguing with my thoughts, and memory reviewing, but they all just end up giving me more intrusive thoughts/questions, making my anxiety more intense, and making me think my intrusive thoughts are real. I’ve always read that you perform compulsions because they bring you relief, and I suppose for me, they more make me feel like I’m working towards “solving the issue” or “answering my question”, so then is that my version of “relief”? In reality, it just makes my anxiety worse because the more I ruminate/memory review, the more jumbled together and foggy my thoughts/memories become, which in turn makes me think that if I ruminate/memory review just a little more, I’ll be able to “push through that fog” and find my answer, which then also causes me anxiety because my brain feels foggy and hence makes completing my compulsions/figuring out my obsession impossible (which I guess is good because I’m not supposed to complete my compulsions). All of this is making me believe that I don’t have OCD and that my intrusive thoughts are true and that’s why I can’t shake them and that’s why I feel the need to figure them out and why I feel so foggy… Or is this just meta OCD playing it’s devious tricks on me? Has anyone else experienced this or is this not OCD and I should be concerned that my obsession is true?
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I have an obsession with doing bad prayers and it’s worse cause of meta ocd. I feel like I can psyche myself out into doing prayers I wouldn’t normally actually do. It’s not all just intrusive prayers either, but that is part of what Meta ocd is targeting. One issue, is that because of it, I’ll start praying for every little thing, like there to be enough soap, etc. I wouldn’t normally pray for this, but thanks to meta OCD I am and I still want it. This creates a bigger issue when there are other desires I have that I want but wouldn’t normally pray for. I can psyche myself out into possibly praying for those and meaning it, however this would not normally happen. Basically there is the fear of doing the prayer I know I could do. Then the fear of the fear of the prayer. Then the fear of the fear of the fear of the prayer, and it causes a lot of anxiety, and can lead to me actually doing it. I’m sure there can be confusion as to how much I mean things, but ocd will also hand select things I can mean (not just intrusive thoughts, since meta ocd is targeting things that aren’t intrusive thoughts). One way this goes away is if I allow myself to pray for all the bad things, even if I mean it. Because everything will go away, including praying for enough soap or something. But then I’m stuck on the fact that I prayed for the specific things. If I don’t do it, I’m stuck worrying about how my mind is going to manipulate me into praying for something
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It is not the thoughts or urges that scare me anymore. It is the way I feel like I’ve absorbed the compulsions into my identity :( I am doing them so automatically that it feels like I am choosing them freely and they’re me. and because of that, it feels like I AM the OCD now, not just someone with OCD. I think I’m just deeply trapped in a loop. I was trying to survive unbearable fear so I started scanning. Then I started pre-scanning. Then checking if I pre-scanned. Then I check how I feel during all that. I run to beat my OCD to the “punchline” (intrusive thought, urge, sensation) because I’m so scared all the time. So scared that I don’t even feel it anymore. I feel numb and all that’s left is this jittery residue and numbness. Now it’s all tangled together in a huge knot. I feel so extremely lost. I think this may just be meta OCD, but I’ve never ever felt so gone before :( I’m really scared.
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