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All of these thoughts are just your ocd. The fact that you’re feeling distressed is a sign that you really don’t want to do this. The love for your family is there, just know that those thoughts are not you and that you’re always in control. Always!
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Thank you:( Sometimes I would even doubt if I’m distressed or not, it’s really hard. But thank u so much :)
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I can relate to all of this and I’m so sorry you are feeling this way as well. We have to believe that ocd can not take our values away, even though it will try to make us believe that it has. We are still the people we know we are even though this is terrifying.
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And I’m sorry you’re going through the same thing, are you diagnosed with OCD? If u ever wanna talk let me know, and thank you, i know we will get through this, don’t lose hope <3
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@Random I am diagnosed, I am currently seeing a therapist through the NOCD app. But it still doesn’t stop my ocd from saying “what if they are wrong and it’s not ocd? What if you want these thoughts?”. It’s relentless! Are you diagnosed as well? And same to you!!
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@AlwaysAnxious Ohh I wish you the best in your therapy! I haven’t, but my therapist isn’t an OCD specialist so I suspect he might be misdiagnosing me. I hope so lol. But if we’re going through similar things that I might actually have OCD. And yes!! “What if you want these thoughts?” Is definitely one of the worst ones, I also get “What if you never cope this because you actually want to hurt people?” It’s all so difficult ... But we got this! Are you in the discord group chat?
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@Random It sounds like ocd to me. I have the same thoughts! But yes, seeing a therapist that specializes in ocd is important, unfortunately ocd is still misunderstood by so many, and especially the more taboo themes like harm ocd or pocd. And I’m not, but I need to download the app and join! Being able to speak with others in another setting would be awesome.
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@AlwaysAnxious I hope! Yes sadly some therapist think OCD is only about repeatedly washing hands. Definitely! Let me know so they can add you :)
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i’m having a full on panic attack, i never used to be like this, what tf is happening to me, why am i like this, i’m so convinced i’m a horrible person and i deserve to be shut out forever because of my thoughts, i’m tired of struggling with harm ocd, i’m scared that because i have mental health issues i’m gonna end up ki!!ing someone someday or end up on the news, when i was at work earlier i kept thinking “how easy would it be to ki!! someone and get away with it” someone help, i don’t feel normal, am i crazy?… 😭😭i know that with ocd you’re not supposed to have reassurance and you have to be “okay” with the situation but.. how am i supposed to be okay with feeling like i could hurt someone…
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Hey guys. I feel like no one will even reply to my post. I feel anxious af. I could barley eat a plate of soup. I feel so drained and fatigued and feel the anxiety in my stomach. I'm just so worried I don't even have harm ocd anymore. Its just... I grew up in a household where swatting people was normalized like if you did something really naughty. I never really questioned it and I grew up thinking it was an okay thing and would sometimes swat someone when they are being naughty growing up and even recently. I would never swat someone at full force or enough to make someone cry just more like a hard tap to get their attention but it feels automatic? And even then it's really really rare for me to do, i much rather talk sternly or tell someone. When i do swat its bc like if someone scared me I guess I hit their hand and say "THAT SCARED ME" and we both start laughing or if my older niece was roughhousing with her younger sister and the younger one gets hurt and the older one laughs, I swat the older one once or twice on her arm as a discipline and say "what is wrong with you??? Why are you laughing? You are much older than her! You could've seriously hurt her." And idk how but i never thought like how wrong this is?!... and I feel like sh/t like ocd keeps saying "well you have swatting impulses when someone is misbehaving or if someone scares or hits you, meaning if you get an impulse to do something really evil instead, you wouldnt be able to control yourself huh?" And I started to get so anxious and scared. Ive NEVER acted out on the harm ocd thoughts (nor do i even want to) ive been getting daily for 4 years even when they are misbehaving. But i get so scared like WHAT IF I get an impulse to do the evil thoughts? What if I lose control?! Is this a history of violence/ low impulse?! Does this mean i would act out on my fears?! I've never wanted to do these thoughts before but i get scared like what if I do one day? This whole day ive been ruminating and asking ai for reassurance. I feel terrible. I feel like a horrible person. I started to cry. I just cant anymore. I feel this weight on my chest. I feel so evil so irredeemable. I f/cking suck. I hate myself so much right now. I feel so much guilt and shame. Why am I still here anymore? Maybe i dont even have ocd and maybe i never did. This is just breaking my heart. I want to change and unlearn this swatting behavior as well for sure. :(
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- 17w
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
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