Ok so I’ve found myself continuously looking at pictures of kids to check to see if I’m attracted to them bc lately my head has been trying to convince me that I’m not attracted to guys older than me like I always have been and sometimes it causes anxiety bc when I look at the pictures of the young kids my mind can’t give a yes or a no bc I’m so focused on trying to find the answer and it’s hard to just sit with the uncertainty like I feel the need to know right now and every time I decide to sit with it, something new comes up and I get even more confused. I’ve gotten further and further into this specific theme and I’m finding it to be so much more difficult than any other theme that I’ve had and I’ve heard therapists saying that ocd likes to attack the things you care about but I’ve never really cared for kids, like I don’t even want kids. The idea of it just never made me excited, but I also have never had an attraction to them once in my life so I don’t know why ocd is making this a theme for me. I wake up and the ocd thoughts are usually the first thing on my mind and I can’t just have one moment of peace with myself. I’m constantly trying to do other things to distract myself but somehow the thoughts creep in. And I don’t find myself trying to look away from children because I want nothing more than to prove the thoughts wrong so I try to check by looking at them but then I get confused bc other days I don’t even get anxiety from the thoughts so I don’t know what is happening. I feel like my words are all over the place but idk what else to do. Is anyone else going through this..