POCD,+18 please, need of help I keep thinking abt when I was like 17 I used to go on amino to roleplay ships I like,and I'm freaked out now over it because even though I never did sexual rp before I still did rp that was in a romantic setting and I'm worried if anyone I ever roleplayed with was massively younger than me and I just didn't care or didn't put in effort to notice. I have a memory of doing a short roleplay with someone and feeling uncomfortable about it and i don't know if it was because I just felt shy or they were young and I was uncomfortable but doing it anyways. A long while back I went to the amino again and checked all my followers and tried to find who I roleplayed with going off of what I remembered their pfp being and the one I thought seemed most similiar was someone who was 20 and all the rest didn't list their age but im worried what if they unfollowed me and did say their age. It all makes me freaked out because there was this thing where a 20 something dude said it was OK he roleplayed nsfw w minors because he didn't want to seem rude by saying no when they suggested it and I don't want to be as bad as that guy is and i never did anything sexual but I'm still scared it's just as bad if it's roleplaying a romantic relationship and I had that memory of feeling uncomfortable but not wanting to seem rude by not interacting. I dont know if it's a false memory or not and idk if it is. I just know when I was spiraling and checking all my social media I deleted a chat w a ship rp w/o checking and I've been freaked since.

I'm very sorry you're going through this. Please please please find some way to ground yourself. You don't deserve to be going through this.

No problem no problem, please take all the time you need to care for yourself. It will be easier to sort your thoughts out when you're calmer.

Well from what I gather out of this, you were 17 and you roleplayed with the intent to have fun and it's not like you specifically wanted to find someone who was massively younger than you. The 20 year old dude I'm more concerned about more than you are because he's way over the age of 18 in a chat that does involve minors. I remember when I was 16 I made friends with this girl but I don't remember her age. I assume we were the same age or we were around the same age because I remember we talked a lot and we were friends and we had a lot of inside jokes we would share. For some reason she sent me a link to adult content once and that was weird but other than that we were friends but I get false memories if she was way younger or if I did something worse but I know I didn't. I don't want to make this about me but maybe I was trying to put in perspective of things. The fact that you worry so much about this shows that it's OCD and you shouldn't try to sit there figuring it out all night. You were a minor after all. Your 19 now, just like me. I doubt you would engage in RP like that. And if you do, that's still fine honestly. As long as it's fully consensual and you know everything you need to about the person that agreed with it. Even I'm ok with occasional roleplay and I only do it with like one close friend for fun. I think you're fine and this doesn't make you a p

Amino is a +13 (maybe +12?) App for fanbases and I remember the thing being for a cartoon I liked at the time. Which worries me more because that increases the likelihood of it being someone 14 or below. Though I do remember meeting a few people older than me there and a lot of the fandom was older at times. I remember I was friends w who I think was a 14 year old that I roleplayed w but it was never anything romantic or sexual it was just characters from the show or that we made up who were family members growing up together and maybe a bit of drama. Please tell me if any of this is like weird and if it is what should I do abt it