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I'm very sorry you're going through this. Please please please find some way to ground yourself. You don't deserve to be going through this.
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Thank you
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@Deer I'm gonna try
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@Deer We're here for you.
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@☔gH0St🌂 I rly appreciate it its scary but having people rly helps
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No problem no problem, please take all the time you need to care for yourself. It will be easier to sort your thoughts out when you're calmer.
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Well from what I gather out of this, you were 17 and you roleplayed with the intent to have fun and it's not like you specifically wanted to find someone who was massively younger than you. The 20 year old dude I'm more concerned about more than you are because he's way over the age of 18 in a chat that does involve minors. I remember when I was 16 I made friends with this girl but I don't remember her age. I assume we were the same age or we were around the same age because I remember we talked a lot and we were friends and we had a lot of inside jokes we would share. For some reason she sent me a link to adult content once and that was weird but other than that we were friends but I get false memories if she was way younger or if I did something worse but I know I didn't. I don't want to make this about me but maybe I was trying to put in perspective of things. The fact that you worry so much about this shows that it's OCD and you shouldn't try to sit there figuring it out all night. You were a minor after all. Your 19 now, just like me. I doubt you would engage in RP like that. And if you do, that's still fine honestly. As long as it's fully consensual and you know everything you need to about the person that agreed with it. Even I'm ok with occasional roleplay and I only do it with like one close friend for fun. I think you're fine and this doesn't make you a p
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Thank you. I didn't think I did anything sexual either since I don't like that stuff but I don't think I'd be comfortable w the fact that I'd rp a romantic relationship w someone 14 or below at that age and just not say no instead. I'm gonna try to live w the uncertainty tho that I'm never rly gonna know. Also for that 20 something person. His shit is public knowledge now so he's usually kicked from most minor spaces as far as I know
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@Deer Also I wish u luck on your own real event. I dont think it sounds like anything bad would happen or it would b ur fault but I get it's scary
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@Deer Well look at it like this: You aren't that 20 year old guy and it could be worse. That sicko is on a literal watchlist in the roleplay community and people are ready to out him if he's seen talking with a minor. That's gotta be a lot of pressure on a person, and I would never want that for anybody like us. That's if he even cares or not, especially if he's still doing what he did here. Thanks for the supportive messages. I don't ruminate it as much as I used to but it has gotten me to cry a few times. It's just stupid things I've done in my teen years and trauma from pornography. I'm always happy to report that I engage with none of these things any longer in my life and I have no reason to go back. That does make me happy to repeat, because it feels like an accomplishment, know what I mean? But since I have OCD simply, it's still there.
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Amino is a +13 (maybe +12?) App for fanbases and I remember the thing being for a cartoon I liked at the time. Which worries me more because that increases the likelihood of it being someone 14 or below. Though I do remember meeting a few people older than me there and a lot of the fandom was older at times. I remember I was friends w who I think was a 14 year old that I roleplayed w but it was never anything romantic or sexual it was just characters from the show or that we made up who were family members growing up together and maybe a bit of drama. Please tell me if any of this is like weird and if it is what should I do abt it
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I’ve been dealing with a lot of anxiety and uncertainty I think I’m really struggling right now. I was in my alone time (self pleasure) and obviously like whenever you’re doing your thing you might have fantasies or whatever and that’s what came into my mind in the moment and then all of a sudden I get a flashback from a scene from pretty little liars came into my mind where Emily kisses Ali on the neck. In pilot actor who played Allison was 12 years old, which the pilot was the first episode I believe but in the rest of the season of season one she was 13 and that flashback was in season one as well after the pilot and I’m really worried that I might have self pleasure to myself to that scene even though I knew all this time that she was 13 in that scene and I don’t feel comfortable because I’m 16 and even though like it’s not too much of an age gap it’s still polished me and I’m scared to death right now, but I didn’t panic immediately because I think I somewhat kinda knew in the moment that I probably didn’t do anything bad but I am not 100% sure and then the more I thought about it, I started to panic even more and now I’m panicking even more now and I feel like a really big pedo, and I keep searching and googling and trying to check for her age to see how old she was in that scene and I’m pretty sure she was 13 but I promise I wasn’t intentionally thinking oh yeah I’m gonna self pressure myself to this scene regardlessof her age. No, I’m just afraid I probably did without even like realizing or registering the thought in my mind, but then at the same time I kind of feel like maybe I was just coexisting with a thought and now I’m scared I’m really scared guys.
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I hope someone can respond... Im genuinely so triggered and so anxious... This actor was accused of grooming, giving and receiving explicit videos of underage women, and harassing women... my POCD is saying that my situation with me venting about 18+ explicit HOCD stuff to people in the PM's on an OCD groupchat I found from NOCD, including the minors, when I was 19, means that I am just as bad as they are... or worse... I pm'ed them from the support group and vented to them in private (including the minors) about my 18+ explicit HOCD struggles... one was uncomfortable by it so i stopped venting to her after she told me she was uncomfortable by it twice... the other gave me reassurance so i kept asking her for reassurance for my 18+ hocd struggles... I dont have any feelings towards minors in any way... the most i ever did was ask the 17 year old "what you bouta do about it 😂😂" when she told me to stop putting myself down when i was 19... i didnt pursue anything with her because of my age... im 23 now... i dont ever want to ever be with minors in any way...I dont ever want to ever be attracted to minors in any way... I dont ever want to ever engage in any inappropriate relations with minors in any way... i dont ever want to EVER be a MAP, a P, or a gro*mer in any way... I dont ever want to be what my pocd says about me... im so scared... plus now its saying that I called the second minor "cute" when i have no recollection of ever doing so... im also scared that I will get cancelled or being misunderstood because of this... someone said that I need help, that I need to turn myself in, and that im hiding behind a diagnosis because of this situation... i genuinely feel so hopeless...
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So one day a couple months ago I saw some posts on threads pop up on instagram and they said I’m 17 and horny and 18 and horny or I think I even remember see a 16 year old one. I’m 20 and I remembered that when those popped up I clicked on them and I don’t know if I did it out of true attraction or out of the urge to make my anxiety go away. I feel like often times if I see something that says any number under 18 even if it has nothing to do with age it could be talking about season 17 of a tv show my mind immediately goes what?? 17??? And then I click on it to make my anxiety go away. So when I remembered all of this I downloaded the threads app because I wanted to see if I could get reassurance and see if I could rekindle how I felt in these moments. When I opened the app all I saw was posts like that but everyone claimed to be 18. The only problem is none of the girls looked 18 they looked like 14-16 so I started to panic I and worry that because I clicked on the threads in the past it popped up more and I was a pedophile for that. All of the accounts all pretty much had only fans links so at that point I was like well they have to be 18 then but now I’m worried that maybe it’s a scammer and they are using underage pictures of girls and putting them on onlyfans. Which I know is out of my control but I just feel like a Pedo and like I did something wrong. Does anyone have any advice? Or have any similar situations/ similarities with this?
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