Hi everyone. I have a contamination OCD. That begun last summer. I started teaching in 2020 and then when corona arrived I stayed at home but I didn't know that home isn't for me at all. I didn't stay at home for such a long time. I stopped my work in March 2020 and my OCD begun in the beggining of July. I had corona at the end of June and the beggining of July. But it became extreme in August when a cousin and her children came ro our house. Those people are extremely disgusting. They go to the toilet and then don't wash their hands (For the pee and the poop it's the same thing) they stayed for 12 days. I just couldn't afford it. When they get back to their house our house was dirty. There was black traces all around in the walls and doors. I coudn't touch anything in the house. I washed the doors, and walls. My mom helped me but there is still things that we didn't washed but my family is still using. I can't sit whenever I want. I can only sit in my chair that I constantly clean and in my bed. I don't allow anyone to touch me. I started working again in october and I feel that I'm free only outside my house because my OCD disappear. I finished my work 2 days ago and I'm staying at home and it's a nightmare for me. I pass 85% of my time at bed because I'm affraid to be dirt. I constantly use a lot of disinfectant wipes to clean my clothes (I know this is weird) I can't live without disinfictant wipes. My parents are always yelling at me and ask me to act normal and put a lot of effort to evitate OCD but I really can't. My dad oblige me to touch things and sit in places that are contaminated and I get so affraid, stressed and I get panicked ! All that because of this cousin and her children. I got to the therapist but she told me that I am in step 1 and she won't give me medicines. And she also told me that she never seen someone who got OCD only at home. I'm so tired, I wash my hands several times and clean with wipes, clean my arms and feet everyday. I'm soooo tired and I think that I'm the only one who hot that kind of OCD 😔😔😔

Contamination OCD

hilaly

Date posted: 4y

I had a similar issue, my family is also not very clean, when my husband and I had our place, it helped tremendously, I still have ocd but it is much more mild and I can touch everything in my own house, I recommend getting another consultation

Lisa1

Date posted: 4y

Thank you. I want to have a house of my own one day. I think it would help me a lot

hilaly

Date posted: 4y

also I had a pact with my therapist that I would not use bleach on my hands and when I touched something I consider dirty I had to assume germs die over time, so now after 3 weeks or so pass, I consider most things clean again

Lisa1

Date posted: 4y

That's so nice. I'm trying to convince my mind that germs die but I'm always searching on the internet how much time germs can stay alive on surfaces and then I'm afraid again because certain types of germs stay alive too long especially on surfaces that are touched most of the time

hilaly

Date posted: 4y

I know but they are very rare, so I just had to accept the possibility, but what you are going through is hard I totally understand

hilaly

Date posted: 4y

is there any chance you or your parents afford professional cleaning, steam can be great for non washable things like walls or sofas

Lisa1

Date posted: 4y

I bought a steam 2 months ago. I cleaned 5 times with it but this didn't help me a lot because in my mind they always touch contaminated things and that won't have an end also I have to clean the steam every time and clean myself too. I really want to move from our house but I can't right now.

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