- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
I used to have sexually intrusive thoughts growing up especially ones regarding incest. I am a 23 year old female, I’ve had thoughts about pretty much everyone in my family. Hell, I have had many sexually intrusive thoughts about everyone. It has made me pretty uncomfortable but more recently due to triggering events it has morphed into POCD and that is what caused me to seek out treatment. I have genuinely convinced myself I am a sex depraved monster. I have become an anxious ridden mess and the depression is intense. You’re not alone at all. Sending lots of love.
yes! for me the incest obsessions are more romantic based than sexual based but still scary. just know you’re not alone ❤️
I’ve had the same thing! In my dreams especially!
You’re not alone hun
My mom has always hated me, legitimately and I had never known why. In my adulthood when I learned about incest(I didn’t know about it as a child because I was very sheltered in my ultra conservative Christian home) I started to wonder if my mom hated me because she feared that my dad preferred me to her. Then I started having the OCD intrusive thoughts. It’s awful. I wish I never had them. I love my dad but now I can’t even hug him the same. If my family ever knew about this I fear I would never be able to talk to them again.
You should try to talk to a therapist about it
@Anonymous I did! I realized they meant nothing about me about a year ago, thank goodness
@kendallope Great! It’s good to know that. I feel your pain though and I wish you wellness
I have had so many thoughts since the 2 years i have had OCD- my intrusive thoughts are basically on the same subject and i hate myself so much for this. But love and support to all those who are constantly fighting 💓
Anyone experience intrusive thoughts of their children during intimate moments? Have you done erp to this? I had one and continued slightly before running and needing to vomit now feel guilty anyone else experienced this?
I have intrusive thoughts about pornography with family, friends or even strangers. I really tried to block them out but it seems they always get triggered.l feel extreme guilt and this massive pit in my stomatach that is just there 24/7 and it WONT GO AWAY! I know this may sound weird but my mum knows about this as she noticed something was wrong, but every time I get a thought I always feel the need to tell her i keep thinking that I have done something wrong and that my guilt will go away if i tell BUT IT DOESN’T It just gets worse and another thing pop in and another. ITS A NEVER ENDING CYCLE and it seems like I just can’t break free. What do I do? Anyone who has also gone through this how did you recover and get your life back?
Hey guys today I just wanted to come here and share an experience I have and I generally don't know what to do I feel like a terrible person for having these thoughts and for thinking them I genuinely don't know what to do I don't know the signs behind it and why I think the way I do but it's honestly driving me crazy I don't know what to do I have a pornography addiction for a long time it's where it's like anytime I'm an intimate moment or am masturbating my head just thinks these weird things always the same repetitive thoughts to of family members your younger sibling or a young child I myself am a 17 year old and I feel so disgusted I feel like I can't live my life anymore I feel like I'm a criminal cuz like it feels like I chose this these thoughts like I actively think them I don't know the signs behind it and I just really need professional help if there's any like therapist here that could fill me in that would be nice I would also like to know if you guys had any similar experiences because for me I feel like I have to rewatch pornography and do it right without the thoughts cuz I feel like the thoughts are just like to prevalent anytime I do anything related to masturbation why do I think this way I'm also just trying to be as honest as I can with this I'm not trying to make myself I guess a victim I'm trying to hold myself accountable if I actually am like this because I also have doubts in my head that tells me that I enjoy these things I feel like I'm going crazy someone help because it feels so real like I acted on them or that I was pleasuring myself to the thoughts and not towards the video it's just how can I live with myself you know also during it it felt like I was thinking the thought for a long period of time like it was dominating my head so I couldn't focus it felt l
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