- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
I used to have sexually intrusive thoughts growing up especially ones regarding incest. I am a 23 year old female, I’ve had thoughts about pretty much everyone in my family. Hell, I have had many sexually intrusive thoughts about everyone. It has made me pretty uncomfortable but more recently due to triggering events it has morphed into POCD and that is what caused me to seek out treatment. I have genuinely convinced myself I am a sex depraved monster. I have become an anxious ridden mess and the depression is intense. You’re not alone at all. Sending lots of love.
yes! for me the incest obsessions are more romantic based than sexual based but still scary. just know you’re not alone ❤️
I’ve had the same thing! In my dreams especially!
You’re not alone hun
My mom has always hated me, legitimately and I had never known why. In my adulthood when I learned about incest(I didn’t know about it as a child because I was very sheltered in my ultra conservative Christian home) I started to wonder if my mom hated me because she feared that my dad preferred me to her. Then I started having the OCD intrusive thoughts. It’s awful. I wish I never had them. I love my dad but now I can’t even hug him the same. If my family ever knew about this I fear I would never be able to talk to them again.
You should try to talk to a therapist about it
@Anonymous I did! I realized they meant nothing about me about a year ago, thank goodness
@kendallope Great! It’s good to know that. I feel your pain though and I wish you wellness
I have had so many thoughts since the 2 years i have had OCD- my intrusive thoughts are basically on the same subject and i hate myself so much for this. But love and support to all those who are constantly fighting 💓
Anyone experience intrusive thoughts of their children during intimate moments? Have you done erp to this? I had one and continued slightly before running and needing to vomit now feel guilty anyone else experienced this?
Hey guys today I just wanted to come here and share an experience I have and I generally don't know what to do I feel like a terrible person for having these thoughts and for thinking them I genuinely don't know what to do I don't know the signs behind it and why I think the way I do but it's honestly driving me crazy I don't know what to do I have a pornography addiction for a long time it's where it's like anytime I'm an intimate moment or am masturbating my head just thinks these weird things always the same repetitive thoughts to of family members your younger sibling or a young child I myself am a 17 year old and I feel so disgusted I feel like I can't live my life anymore I feel like I'm a criminal cuz like it feels like I chose this these thoughts like I actively think them I don't know the signs behind it and I just really need professional help if there's any like therapist here that could fill me in that would be nice I would also like to know if you guys had any similar experiences because for me I feel like I have to rewatch pornography and do it right without the thoughts cuz I feel like the thoughts are just like to prevalent anytime I do anything related to masturbation why do I think this way I'm also just trying to be as honest as I can with this I'm not trying to make myself I guess a victim I'm trying to hold myself accountable if I actually am like this because I also have doubts in my head that tells me that I enjoy these things I feel like I'm going crazy someone help because it feels so real like I acted on them or that I was pleasuring myself to the thoughts and not towards the video it's just how can I live with myself you know also during it it felt like I was thinking the thought for a long period of time like it was dominating my head so I couldn't focus it felt l
so I’ve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that I’ve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the “maybe”or”i don’t know” isn’t working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that I’m afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there it’ll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is what’s keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. It’s also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when I’m cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. it’s almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know it’s wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i can’t control these urges even though i’ve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. I’ve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friend‘s boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?
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