Why does my hocd just feel like denial 😕

Bro PLZZ follow my account I have same hocd like you

@Jbm421 I think you have false attaraction as well

Thinking about men. And the feelings behind it. I do exposures and I see men with there tops off and I know it doesn't do it for me. As soon as I think of women my mind is no interested 😕

@Robot1 I hope so buddy

@Ihateocd83 Yes same

I just want this gone

@Robot1 Yeah, that and loss of attraction.

@Ihateocd83 Dude, this is how fucked this whole thing is: I was in bed all morning with this crap in my head. But (to much info warning), I looked at pics of girls on my phone and felt normal, like myself so I wanked. But then I visit my mom and I cant feel anything for the chicks on the movie she watching. Now I'm in the gym and my anxiety is up. My mind trying to get me to check.

@Ihateocd83 See? Now I'm in the gym and dudes are not triggering me but I can't feel a damn thing for females....fml

@Jbm421 Ok try nofap for some days u get better buddy

@Jbm421 I know mate I went to the shopping centre earlier and couldn't feel a god damn thing

@Ihateocd83 That’s me but with men, and scared i feel things for women & get triggered by them (im a female, straight i think lol dunno....well in a way i do know, but hocd is just a doubtful and almost convincing pain in my ass)

@hate_ocd.123 Feel like I lost females forever. And then the false attractions. But thinking about anything like that with a dude is just gross. Fml...

@hate_ocd.123 Literally have men in my head all the time 😔

@Ihateocd83 I dont like the thoughts with females either. The thought of being friends im like 😁 and then the thoughts of anything more liking kissing and sex and all that stuff gives me so much anxiety and scares me (i think it disgusts me idk at this point i just dont want it) The thought with males ive fallen in love with one guy, wanted to do everything with him. However i have like zero attraction. I cant even find them attractive anymore, and hocd makes me feel like im disgusted by men. And like half of me feels that way then another half doesn’t and i was also horrible abused sexually and physically by men so i revert back to a child, so hocd just fucks up my head. I hate thinking about men cause i feel disgusted by them but my body responds to men and im scared im a lesbian because of that, but i dont wanna be disgusted by them and i wanna be with a guy one day But even as i said that i got a feeling that im lying:( But i dont wanna be with women and im scared im lying I heard this is decently common in hocd with people..... Like HOCD MAKES YOU FEEL THE WAY YOU DONT WANNA FEEL

@Ihateocd83 Like even typing that i felt like a lesbian in denial, but all my gay friends were like “we didnt feel like that”

@hate_ocd.123 It is common. It can ruin everything especially how u feel of the opposite sex. Like you cant find them sexy anymore. It's awful. But it's common but I can feel it sort of coming back.

@Ope No....i mean if im super horny yes only men sound good. But im talking about like sex dreams, guys touching me. I’ve only ever gotten wet from a man and ever felt turned on that way

@hate_ocd.123 Are you in therapy at all ? Or medication

@Jbm421 It's the worst thing and I think I'm starting to see through the bullshit I get glimpses

@Ihateocd83 No sadly cant afford it

@hate_ocd.123 Are you from the UK?

@Ihateocd83 No US, california to be exact

@hate_ocd.123 Beautiful place 👍

@Ope Yeah I have a couple. Just don't get much time to read 😒

@Ope My loss of attraction is very worrying I literally can't feel a thing like there is no desire I feel nothing and then I feel like I'm forcing it 😕

@Ope Is there anything we can do for it ? Or is it just a waiting game ?

@Ope I think it is just a waiting game. But I'm just worried because I never seem to get my attraction back fully. And I am dying to get it back fully 😔😔😔

@Ihateocd83 Yo, your other post triggered me bad man. Now I'm kinda spiraling...

@Jbm421 Me too buddy

@Jbm421 What one mate. Shit I'm sorry buddy 😔

@Ope No i havent, and also im struggling with being scared im disgusted by the thought of men and being with them (cause ocd also imitates the feelings you’re scared you feel) and im so scared rn:(

@Ihateocd83 I'm not happy about it. I shouldn't have read that shit. Now it all over. I'm done bro. Now it feels like it all came true. It over.

@Ope I dont wanna feel like that towards boys i wanna love them again:(

@Jbm421 Mate.... are you OK?

@Ihateocd83 No bro. Although I do feel better than I did earlier. That shit triggered everything. But fuck that. Gay stuff is still gross. Lol

@Ihateocd83 Now I'm in the gym and it feels all real. Cant feel a damn thing for a female.

@Jbm421 It's all mental brother. Try not to focus on it too much

What are urges etc?

My heads a mess I'm getting that feeling of confessing😔

@Ihateocd83 I've had that. Like you are gonna just blurt it out or like you feel you HAVE to confess. Bro, all day the intrusive thoughts been fucking with me. Too damn convincing sometimes. Im trying to sleep and its killing me. I just want girls back bro...