Hi everybody. I have SOOCD and am engaged (to a man) - if anyone else is engaged and dealing with this and can relate, would be interested to know if you want to connect. :) Really right now though i just want to vent that I HATE the fact that my SOOCD is making me feel like I’m homophobic. Some of my best best friends are gay and I very much support all of their rights to have all of the rights!! This is probably one of the worst parts about SOOCD and OCD in general. I value my friends being able to have rights. But I also value my partner and I’m sure that’s why OCD is attacking me like this. Anyway just wanted to post in case anyone else could relate. Thank you for reading and have a good day :)

Thank you for sharing!! That makes me happy

@Ope Ope -I know I feel you. I was bad this morning and did some ruminating even though my therapist has told me a zillion times not to....because I have OCD :-p my current strategy is going to be to throw myself into the hardest exposure I’ve done yet (trigger warning: read the stories of people coming out later in life, just writing those words still scares me) and just do it everyday for like 30 mins. I’m gonna do it over and over again. It can be hard to trust but even when I’m scared or uncomfortable I’m going to try my best to do that

@Ope Rumination is literally the hardest compulsion to give up because it’s always with you. I can stop researching but not ruminating is hard!

@Warrior113 Ruminating is the WORST. Never ending circle, you feel like you have to ruminate and figure it out even though you have been told that it is a compulsion and you don’t have to do it! It’s not something we’re going to figure out! A lot of days this actually makes me happy to think about I guess. But I know, no reassurance.

@anonymous10 I’ve been doing better about breaking through on that though (recognizing and noting desire to ruminate)

Same!!!

@Ope It’s so interesting. I haven’t been out in months and suddenly felt like myself for an hour. I actually had my last onset of OCD during maternity leave (when I was also alone a lot).

@Ope It’s such torture!

@Ope Did you say your SOOCD started after you got married? But this isn’t your first theme?

@Ope It’s so tough. I think I’ve had some more mild ROCD too but this theme has been the absolute worst.

@Ope Hi hun, have you managed to recover from this? X