lkkkk1234
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pureolifepureolife
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That’s erp for you! Let it feel real. Feel whatever you feel. And just let those feelings be there and leave on their own. You don’t need to attend to them, solve them, get rid of them, or anything else. Accept the sensations without judgment.
lkkkk1234lkkkk1234
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I needed to hear that thanks :) really struggling today
pureolifepureolife
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@Anonymous This shit is hard! It’s okay for it to feel that way. It would be weird if it didn’t
lkkkk1234lkkkk1234
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The thing is I know I love my boyfriend and want to grow old with him so the rest shouldn’t matter but it makes me feel like a fraud, in denial. Being in a relationship doesn’t make the fears feel any less real :(
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I’m so sorry, hopefully recovery is near for both of us. I just feel like I can’t stop thinking this way and un see what I’ve seen. It’s caused me to sexualise women and think about women sexually a lot and I just can’t unsee it
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@Ope Omg for me it’s like random people I find online who are lesbians. Their faces constantly pop up in my head and I try to imagine myself intimately with them and it makes me so uncomfortable. It switches a lot so someone who used to rly trigger me now doesn’t at all. I also feel like an outsider as surely all women should trigger me but a lot don’t? So isn’t that just further proof its real for me
lkkkk1234lkkkk1234
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@Ope Maybe, I just feel like the exception lol. I haven’t told my parents what’s going on and think maybe I should but I’m so scared they are going to misunderstand what I’m going through I’ve been doing therapy through nocd and just paying for it myself so they don’t know but I don’t know how much longer I can keep this just to myself
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@Ope When this first started 2 years ago I mentioned it to him but haven’t since, I just don’t want to make him feel bad. He knows I have ocd and anxiety and am working with a therapist just not what exactly
lkkkk1234lkkkk1234
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@Ope I’m just worried what they will think, but I need to tell them so I can see a psychiatrist for meds
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@Anonymous I just think they think I’m ruining my life
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@Ope Thanks for that :) feels so nice talking to someone who understands.
lkkkk1234lkkkk1234
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@Ope Thank you!!! I hope so and the same goes for you !
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I had this we didn’t have sex for months. Then we did and it was great and I cried a lot after as I felt so guilty that I had been putting it off. But then I tried to force it the next week and got upset it wasn’t as good.
lkkkk1234lkkkk1234
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Honestly it’s awful
lkkkk1234lkkkk1234
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@Ope Yep, I just have to believe I WILL get through it and one day will see it as a gift that taught me to be strong.
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