Someone please help! I feel like crying. I had an argument with my sister regarding something. I play this online game called yo world on fb and I met someone on there who also lives near me. We are close friends and she’s a girl and I’m thinking about meeting her. My ex was really toxic which traumatised me really badly and made me want to end my life. she was a girl. However I was on soo many pills because off my intrusive thoughts and anxiety that i wasn't aware of my own actions( whether i really liked her) or just wanted someone to be with me to not feel alone. i told my sister i am planning to meet up with this girl however were just good friends. i guess my sister is right about bringing someone over just to chill after meeting them once however i got really upset when my sister said that as i started to believe that she was stopping me from meeting someone and make friends. my mum got involved after i argued with my sister and said why i was getting so upset and thought i was meeting this girl ( for something else) however after my last relationship it left me questioning about my sexuality it was my first one. i don't know whether I'm bisexual or not cause whenever i watch programmes with good-looking guys i get attracted and happy. i have liked guys before. my mum is like so your bisexual means u want to be with a guy and a girl in a relationship at the same time? now i cant stop thinking about what if i want to be with two people at the same time? i'm getting scared. this thought happened after my mum said that. i don't even know if I'm bisexual or not. i feel really embarrassed having this thought. i searched on the internet. 'confused about my sexuality and lgtb came up. i saw the wore trans gender and starting thinking what if im transgender . i don't want these thoughts. i just want to be free. i can't stop thinking about my sexuality. i feel that i never liked guys when i did??? why is my brain making me feel like this. : (

Relationship OCD

nikkii

Date posted: 4y

it sounds like soocd

Aisha372828

Date posted: 4y

Soocd?

nikkii

Date posted: 4y

@Aisha372828 sexual orientation ocd

Aisha372828

Date posted: 4y

@nikkii Oh I’m not aware of what that is. 😓

nikkii

Date posted: 4y

@Aisha372828 your last paragraph explains it and also with tocd (transgender ocd) which falls under the soocd category

whatadooo

Date posted: 4y

Listen, if you want to meet this person because you get along, do it! Screw your parents and sisters opinion. I'm bisexual but that doesn't mean I can't be just friends with the same gender??? And if it's meant to be more than that then it will be. Idk why your sister would be giving you shit other than the fact that since its online please be safe and meet at a public place.

whatadooo

Date posted: 4y

Also I'm bisexual and I do not want to be in a relationship with both at the same time ! I'm monogamous, I've done the whole 3 way sex thing and it's alot of fun but i have rocd being in a serious and committed relationship with one person is enough!🤣

whatadooo

Date posted: 4y

You sound like you're dealing with sexual orientation ocd different Being lgbt comes with alot of struggles, don't overthink your sexuality too much, it doesn't matter, you like who you like at the time and who you like can change and or revert over time and that's okay, love is fluid!

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