I've been realizing that to keep going and act on values in the face if uncertain feelings is a huge commitment. It's like accepting yeah I may be "wrong" but this is what I'm gonna do cause I need to strengthen my self trust. It's so effing hard. My heart goes out to others dealing with SOOCD within a committed relationship like I am. On top of it all I am bisexual so this feels like an eternal mindfuck but somewhere within my values I know the beginning of this relationship was so good that I didnt care ir obsess over what gender my partner is not did I obsess over what exact sexuality I am. I have hope in that, but at the same time, sometimes a day with ocd is a hopeless day. My heart goes out to all who can relate. <3