Help someone?

You had a gay dream because you're ruminating on whether or not you're gay, dreams dont make things real remember that.

You are exactly like me, I can find a woman attractive but the thought of having sex with her disgusts me and that's how I know I'm not a lesbian. Homosexual people arent disgusted with the thought of sex with the same sex, unless they've been brought up in a religion that says it's a disgusting act but eventually once they get over that that feeling goes away for them. However with us it wont because when we try to accept ourselves let's say as bisexual, it's never good enough for OCD it wants more from us so it keeps pushing this narrative that we're gay because we saw someone of the same sex we find attractive or someone said we look gay. It wants us to ruminate on these things and go looking for the answers but the problem with that is we wont ever get an answer that sastifys OCD. Can I ask what makes you feel you want to be with a man and be with him in what way? Is it in a sexual way or more of a friendship/emotional way, for example I know when I have feelings that I want to be with a woman it's in a emotional friendship way it gives me a safe feeling because I know a woman is less likely to take advantage of me. Also when someone says a man looks gay they usually mean he looks more feminine then you're average looking man, theres alot of seemingly gay (feminine) looking men that are more straight than that overly masculine looking man.