Ihateocd83
- Date posted
- 4y ago
kditokdito
- Date posted
- 4y ago
What’s up?
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Some girl yesterday said I look gay and this is not the first time this has happened. I'm in hell 😔
TanayaTanaya
- Date posted
- 3y ago
Dont fight it, OCD loves it when you do that, just say to yourself maybe I do look gay, so what. The less power you give OCD the more it will realise it's not going to get a rise out of you. OCD wants you to ruminate on what that girl said and it wants you to do rearrance seeking behaviours the less you do those though the better. I know it's not easy but you can do it, take that power back from OCD, it's a bully not worth your time.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I just had a gay dream. I'm disgusted and it was the worst ever. And afterwards it was like at least I've tried it now. How can I not be gay. Apparently I look gay and with these feelings like i want to be with a man my life is over 😔
TanayaTanaya
- Date posted
- 3y ago
You had a gay dream because you're ruminating on whether or not you're gay, dreams dont make things real remember that.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
- Date posted
- 3y ago
What about the feelings of wanting to be with a man. I keep saying maybe I'm bisexual. I just find the idea of doing something with a man gross. Even writing that my mind said he's got to be hot. That girl the other day saying my face looks gay has messed me up completely 😔
TanayaTanaya
- Date posted
- 3y ago
You are exactly like me, I can find a woman attractive but the thought of having sex with her disgusts me and that's how I know I'm not a lesbian. Homosexual people arent disgusted with the thought of sex with the same sex, unless they've been brought up in a religion that says it's a disgusting act but eventually once they get over that that feeling goes away for them. However with us it wont because when we try to accept ourselves let's say as bisexual, it's never good enough for OCD it wants more from us so it keeps pushing this narrative that we're gay because we saw someone of the same sex we find attractive or someone said we look gay. It wants us to ruminate on these things and go looking for the answers but the problem with that is we wont ever get an answer that sastifys OCD. Can I ask what makes you feel you want to be with a man and be with him in what way? Is it in a sexual way or more of a friendship/emotional way, for example I know when I have feelings that I want to be with a woman it's in a emotional friendship way it gives me a safe feeling because I know a woman is less likely to take advantage of me. Also when someone says a man looks gay they usually mean he looks more feminine then you're average looking man, theres alot of seemingly gay (feminine) looking men that are more straight than that overly masculine looking man.
Ihateocd83Ihateocd83
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I have no idea it just came on out of knowwhere to be honest it feels as though I like there genitals as well. this has all got worse last August I've had this going on since I was 22 I'm 38 now but it's so much worse now like the feelings behind it etc. I just don't know if it is ocd anymore. In my mind my thoughts will be like just tell the truth its so cruel. I feel like I want to ask my gf and people if they think I look gay 😔
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