How does OCD come about? For me, someone said something that "made sense" and then someone else said something that I ruminated on and bam, there was the first intrusive thought. At first I laughed it off. I was so secure in myself that the thought didn't bother me. Then began the "it should bother me", "why did I even think it?", "what if it is true", "I don't want to lose my bf", "it's not true now, but what if it will be in the future" (linked to what one of the things said by someone I know), which of course led to so much guilt for thinking it (I have a bf), I ended up telling my bf then became anxious he would leave me (he didn't) and then I fell down the rabbit hole with it getting worse and worse, for about a year. Then I discovered SOCD. Now I'm trying not to look into my past, but can't help wonder if there were any warning signs that I had OCD waiting to reveal itself. Is that even possible?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymous2020

Date posted: 4y

For anyone that wants to know what was said I'll post it below in reply to this comment. This is a TRIGGER WARNING. I'm only sharing in case it helps with exposure or anyone else heard similar things in their life and need to know they aren't alone.

Justmesadly

Date posted: 4y

What was said is hidden by the app. But I think this is a pretty typical way to discover ocd. Everyone has intrusive thoughts then sudden they bother us

Anonymous2020

Date posted: 4y

@Justmesadly I didn't realise the app did that, I guess it's to protect people. Anyway, thank you for replying. Do you think it is the intrusive thought that causes OCD or has the OCD always been there waiting sort of thing?

Justmesadly

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous2020 Ocd doesnt always have to be there. But no the intrusive thoughts don’t cause ocd

Justmesadly

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous2020 It could have been waiting, exactly! I think I’ve heard doctors say your predisposed

Anonymous2020

Date posted: 4y

@Justmesadly That's interesting 🤔 my grandad had OCD, but about personal cleanliness and my mum shows signs of it (having to check the doors and windows several times at night, has to say things in the right order to my nan or something bad will happen). Genetics seems to be a strong factor.

Justmesadly

Date posted: 4y

@Anonymous2020 Yeah some people it’s genetics, I think I’ve seen people who have it bc of genetics it’s a different type so you actually have had it since you were a kid possibly. But I don’t think it’s 100% always that way

Anonymous2020

Date posted: 4y

@Justmesadly That's really interesting, thank you! 😊

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