POCD has really started to make watching anime impossible for me. Since most anime characters are usually in high school or teens it’s really triggering for me now that i’m 20 almost 21 and no longer the same age as them. It’s really hard for me to watch anime without pausing or rewinding and looking at pictures of characters and analyzing their attractiveness to see if my feelings are normal or indicative of me being a monster. It’s like i can’t just recognize that a character can be drawn attractive without feeling like i have to be sexually attracted to them to think this way or that i can’t recognize any sort of sexual/attractive appeal without being a horrible person. I get that anime characters aren’t real and are drawn to be exaggerated and attractive and some characters look way older than they are but my black and white thinking makes it hard to not over analyze my feelings when the character is given and age of like 13-17. Groinal responses make this even harder and make me feel even worse sometimes, when i sit there trying to analyze my feelings towards a character and i have a groinal response it spikes my anxiety as I feel i just received proof i’m a monster. I just would like to watch anime again like i used to enjoy it.