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I feel the same way. There are times I have the thought of harming someone and I just blow it off and know I would never do it. But other times the anxiety and thoughts get so intense it really feels like I would act on those harmful thoughts. They used to be much worse, but I have been seeing a NOCD therapist and do feel like I’m slowly getting better and handling the thoughts better through the ERP I’m doing for my harm OCD.
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Exactly, thanks for sharing it helps a lot. But yeah I definitely need to seek help, I am glad you’re going through recovery. I wish you the best <3
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I know exactly how you feel. I used to tell myself that I am in charge of my own seating (it turned into a compulsion) but it just doesn’t feel that way. I feel like I’ve randomly turned into someone else. I feel like I don’t know who I am and I don’t know what’s true in my mind and what’s not. I feel like my destiny has been decided for me and I hate that. I know I don’t wanna do these thing but my thoughts tell me otherwise and I feel so lost and confused and frustrated with myself. So yes, I can relate to you!!! OCD is a b****
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My own destiny*
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Omg yes I feel you so much!! I relate to all that so much. I don’t wanna do it but as soon as I say that my mind says: are you sure? Is that true? I hate it. But thank you so so much for sharing, it makes me feel less alone. I am so sorry you’re going through this tho, I know how hard it is. But we’re in the same page together :)
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This happen to me and wow it caused me so much stress. I remember even telling my husband that I’m not good anymore. That I was “evil”. I thought I was gonna commit a crime. This lasted for 8 months But at the end throughout those months I worked really hard to learn to shift my mind, to put in effort to think otherwise, I put effort to work and also to socialize and practice healthy habits. I also took store bought relaxers and told myself I rather be numb and too relax then being capable of hurting someone. If you wanna try them (they are called “Anxie-T” by life season. Til this day when I get nervous I use them and even my family does. They work like a charm. And obviously I got professional help but all I did was talk to the therapist and got ssris from my gynecologist but I only took 1 pill cause they gave me side affects. Anyways these all helped. I still have this thoughts but I don’t freak out anymore or believe they have anything with me..
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I feel you so much. It’s so scary tbh. I feel so confused right now, as if I wanted to do all this and I just don’t want to accept it. Or like my unconscious wants to do this but I’m just denying it. Thank you so much for sharing, I really appreciate it, I’m glad you recovered, I hope I get through that as well. It’s very hard not to engage with thoughts because it feels that it’s something important I just can not ignore, but I’ll try my best. Thank you:)
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- 22w
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
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- 20w
There are times my harm ocd has me convinced that my feelings of self harm or suicide and harm are real and that any moment I could commit the act on myself or my family. Is there anyone who can chime in on this. I feel like all the time I want to leave run away or avoid my family because of these thoughts. Like I shouldn’t be around my children and I don’t trust myself.
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I think when people are saying OCD is egodystonic is really triggering me and I was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I’m going through a really bad relapse and right now I’m trying to figure out if my thoughts are truly egodystonic, like I how do I know I won’t act on them, how can I trust my emotions and everything. I feel really confused and I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore or how I carry on with life because it’s so long and I’m so unsure of everything that’s going on in my head. Like how do I know that this is OCD and true desires/urges. I’m so confused.
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