Monica
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- 4y
Alina LilacAlina Lilac
- Date posted
- 4y
Hi Monica I'm so sorry and also I can completely relate I think harm ocd might be one of the worst subtypes just like dealing with it is so hard! so I'm really sorry I don't know if this helps but the song serotonin by girl in red perfectly describes harm ocd. I would recommend meditation, journaling
kmecrozkmecroz
- Date posted
- 4y
Hey Monica!! I a MILLION percent feel you. I try to explain this to my husband, "I'm afraid of being afraid" - I get you, I see you. I will tell you afraid of being afraid led me to avoidance and living in a small box. It helped short term, but I wasn't really living. So I forced myself to push through and made myself face my issues and triggers. It SUCKED. I can tell you I went from almost every day of afraid of being afraid (after my initial boutique with OCD) to only happening once or twice a month now. You've got to realize it's just thoughts. When your body feels anxious and your mind doesn't- before you start reeling and remind yourself of the past responses - just tell yourself its okay to feel anxious and that doesn't mean anything bad is going to happen. Hope this helps! Blessings!! Hugs from Ohio!
kmecrozkmecroz
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- 4y
Boutique hahahhahah OCD boutique - could you imagine? I'd put things in disarray on purpose. I meant battle
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 4y
I feel this so much. It’s sometimes feel like harm OCD and the thought of hurting Someone is the hardest OCD to deal with. It’s so scary.
kmecrozkmecroz
- Date posted
- 4y
@Anonymous It is!! I always tell my husband I wish I were deathly afraid of penguins. I think it'd be so much easier hahaha
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 4y
@kmecroz Do you have harmful thoughts of specific people or random people?
kmecrozkmecroz
- Date posted
- 4y
@Anonymous It just depends, but mostly revolves around my family. I notice when I'm super stressed (prior to therapy) it would be anyone. If I wasn't stressed just family. I completed the NOCD therapy and it truly helped a ton. I'm not sure if it ever goes away fully, but it prepares you that it really doesn't bother you anymore. You'll have the intrusive thought but your brain is back to normal, like "oh, okay?" Then moves on. I maybe have an episode once or twice a month now opposed to every. single. day. I'm also a Christian so I used Bible verses to battle the anxiety which helped A TON.
AnonymousAnonymous
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- 4y
@kmecroz My thoughts I usually about my family but sometimes random people. It’s almost scary when it’s random people cause I’m so used to it being my family when it’s someone not in my family is new and scary. But I just started my NOCD therapy about a week ago so it’s good to hear you had success with it and hope I do as well!
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- 21w
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