tw: pocd rant my pocd started out with an intrusive thought last year and now it’s developed into me having the worst guilt i’ve ever had in my life, depression, anxiety, not being able to sleep good, feeling like i am a monster, latching on to every child and saying i have a “crush” on them when i don’t, gronial responses that make me more anxious and refusal to leave my house because i am so afraid of seeing children....F OCD!!!! I HATE UUUU!!!!!!!! I HATE POCD SO MUCH!!!!!! I WISH IT WOULD JUST GO AWAY!!!!! ITS SO RIDICULOUS! i would never hurt a child and it knows that and tries to make me feel insane and put horrible thoughts into my head and no matter how much i am like “please stop!” it just never does, like when will this end i am so sick and tired of dealing with this horrible disorder and watching all my friends and family around me be normal and they must feel so great about themselves and i am over here trying to suppress intrusive thoughts and trying to calm my anxiety around children because my pocd is screaming at me!!!! i hate this so muchhh!!! ok sorry rant over...

thank you! i will :) these comments have really inspired me

thank you, it’s really been rough the last year, i am gonna look for one this week, i want help and recover so bad :(

@hope Girl yes see a therapist it’ll help... no matter how guilty and shameful you may feel about it, I opened up to my bf about my POCD and thankfully he’s been supportive and knows it’s not me.. a therapist will know that too and remember it’s a disorder, not YOU. You are amazing, this is just a disorder trying to take your light away. I finally had my first consult ever with a therapist today and am seeking help for my various OCD’s POCD included.. do it, you’ll never regret it, it’ll be the best thing for you right now.. 💪🏼 you got this!

@PinkOCD thank you!!!!!! that’s super inspiring! :)

@hope Yeah def get some help. Even when it seems impossible you can recover but you need help

@hope Is there anyway we can become friends outside this app?.. I don’t know anyone else in person or online that suffers from the same OCD’s as me and I think it would be good for us to be able to support eachother through these difficult times..

@PinkOCD omg of course, i am still kinda scared to open up about it to people. but i am always here if you need to talk!

@hope Honestly same but it’s been getting easier to talk about... I only talk about my POCD with people I feel can really handle it but... yeah it’s hard to talk about for sure Bc it brings us guilt Bc it’s taboo and not “normal.” But.. what’s your Snapchat?. Maybe we can start there.. my snap is veggiebeef

@PinkOCD yeah i barely open up about it because i am afraid people in my life will report me or genuinely think i am a “p” and avoid me. :( also ill add u! definitely talking to someone that understands helps a lot. :)

@hope Right Tho fr that’s why we gotta be careful who we open up to about it. But okay!. Well I look forward to getting to know you more and being able to support eachother with this.

@PinkOCD aw yes same! it’ll be nice to have someone around that understands and doesn’t judge!