I used to think like aw how sweet this girl thinks I’m cool enough to hug when receiving affection from female friends it was like “Yay I’m one of the girls” but now it just makes me insanely uncomfortable. Today I was taking pictures at my banquet and my friend cupped my face in her hands and did a kissy face for the picture and I felt like running away. Before it wouldn’t have bothered and I would’ve gone along with the picture but ugh no, not today. I guess the new “cycle” of this stupid theme is whether or not me liking affection means I like my friends. 🙄

Oof I feel this. I avoid hugging my female friends sometimes, then feel anxious about the fact I avoided it. Oh to have OCD 🥲

Hey there, I‘m so so sorry you‘re going through this. I know exactly how you feel, it is a nightmare isn’t it? I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone in this there are so many people (including me) who go through the same shit. Right know you might feel like you’re never gonna be okay again but this is a lie you‘re brain is feeding you. You will be okay and you will feel like yourself again. I‘m here if you need to talk to someone <3

I worry about this too, im constantly analysing everything.. youre not alone, stay strong ❤️

This is taking away all my happy experiences with guys and telling me they didn’t matter as much because I’m going to like it better with girls. Everything I held dear, a lie. Everything I wanted for myself, an illusion. It just hurts so much because it feels like I can never have that side of me back again and that’s if it even existed. Right now those moments feel insignificant, feels like I was forcing them and just forcing myself to fit society’s standards. It hurts so much and I feel so trapped 💔💔