This is a question for really anyone. Growing up I didn’t have a ton of friends, but in my later teens, early twenties i met a group of guys that I would hang out with. One of them I became really good friends with and I looked up to him as a brother, mainly because he was a few years older. He was basically everything I wanted to be, funny, smart and very charismatic. It was a very Tyler Durden/ fight club type scenario. We would hang out one on one and sometimes just drive around and BS, or talk about relationships, girls, etc. My OCD/HOCD is now attacking it as if I was attracted to him romantically or some other bullshit and I wanted to be around him because of that. Honestly I never had a fleeting thought of romanticism towards him back then, I just thought it was cool to hang out with someone I admired and wanted to be like and was essentially the older brother I never had. Does/did anyone else have this type of friendship or relationship? Does it sound “gay” I guess (he’s married with a kid now, I’m obviously dealing with HOCD but never felt any type of sexual feelings toward)?

I had this , my old best friend since middle school going into high school. I was pretty lonely and she was always there. I never saw it as romantic either, I do recall when we had our last “fight” I was so sad that I thought “Does me being this sad mean I like her?” I dismissed it after a few minutes and never thought about it again until this theme so who knows

I had this with many different kind of people. I had this itrusive thoughts about friends but most of the times it would be with celebrities. Like I like certain rappers and soccer players and when i am on OCD my mind try to tell me that I only like them sexually which isn't the case. Thats exactly what OCD is my friend. Doubts. It makes you doubt about whether yout friendship was friendship or you were just sexually attracted to him. The only thing you can do is accept that the thought is there and move and after a year you will look back at it and laugh. That's what happens to me a lot. My OCD changes themes and I obssess about different people and situations. I had some obssessions and now looking back at them I can't even believe i was stressing out about things like that. Keep strong brother. Get therapy if needed.

I appreciate it. There was never any type of romantic or sexual attraction, we hung out a lot and I liked being around him because I could vent about life and get advice from him. I used to hangout with him and his ex a lot (I actually had feelings for her before they dated) but again, I never thought of it as anything more than hanging with someone older and cooler then me.