TW: magical thinking ocd sometimes i avoid certain words bc my manifestation ocd (magical thinking) thinks if i read the word too much, my subconscious will attach to it and i’ll become it HAHAHA LIKE WHAT?? i know it’s ridiculous but like why does it make sense in to my ocd..

"Pure" OCD

Gela💞

Date posted: 4y

Ocd doesn’t care about logic. I’ve suffered from the same manifestation anxiety and lemme tell you belief is a mother fucker, you truly see what you believe and not because your thoughts became reality(which you will learn time and time again is impossible) but because your mind will look for the signs of something occurring. As an example I would look for numbers as signs as a compulsion in a way, and I would see them not bc I was making them appear but bc I was looking and that just enhanced my belief in the magic. It’s alllll mental and it’s tough but I find that the more research you do into the psychology of it, it helps make it more sense. I’ve found a few YouTube videos that have further explained how magical thinking ocd all works I wish there was more talk about manifestation ocd bc it’s quite intense

Gela💞

Date posted: 4y

Your mind will subconsciously look making your conscious brain belief. Think about when you get a new car and then you see your car everywhere it’s not bc everyone bought the same car as you it’s bc your looking for it

hope

Date posted: 4y

that makes so much sense now why i always search for repeating numbers like (111,222) to help me feel like i am not alone or i am on the right path? like to a point that it’s not healthy. i also obsess over specific signs like if i get one i feel relieved like it’s a compulsion. i will look for certain shapes in the clouds as one of my compulsions, it started out after someone in my family passed, but now i look up everyday too much and if i don’t see one i’ll think God is upset with me. even typing this is making me realize how bad it’s gotten...it really is all mental. 😭 and ur right it’s super intense, it feels so read and valid to me in my head, but it’s all just me and my ocd...

hope

Date posted: 4y

@hope *real

Gela💞

Date posted: 4y

@hope Absolutely I’ve dealt with everything you just said. Nothing has ever came about bc of these signs and I can assure you the god ocd tells you about is not my god he’s a cool dude and won’t be mad for you recovering from this struggle

Gela💞

Date posted: 4y

@hope It always feels real and then when I realize it was just me having a ocd episode of sorts I feel like a fool it’s so wild and it’s tough having like a full body experience and then these “signs” on top of it

hope

Date posted: 4y

@Gela💞 it’s so interesting that our brains will obsess over these random things. this makes so much sense why when i passionately explain my cloud obsessions to people they give me looks lol like it just makes sense in my head but i know it’s not real, worst part is ocd will keep telling you it’s real when you know it’s not...but thank you, it’s nice to actually talk to someone that has this because i never knew my cloud thing or manifestation ocd was common...

Gela💞

Date posted: 4y

@hope Yes thank you for sharing it’s always good to reassure your not alone

LiliMariieX

Date posted: 4y

Mate this is the bain

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