I babysat a kid that’s not mine today. He mentioned private parts, more than once. He needed to change into PJs, he’s like are you gonna watch me? Nope, you can do it on your own and I will step out of the room. He changed and then mentioned he wasn’t wearing underwear under his pants because he doesn’t like it. He’s six. I got through this with lots of intrusive thoughts, but I got through it. (This has been a share)

Milestone!! Good for you

Proud of you!

This is inspiring to here. Good for you. I hope you are very proud of yourself. :)

Good job! Having a trigger even from reading this but I said “you know what you are going to read this any way” thanks for the exposure, we can do this Xx

Thanks guys ?

How are you doing hales?

Doing pretty good soniclen. Focusing on accepting the uncertainty with my therapist right now, then moving onto conquering exposures. One day at a time

It might worth exploring things when you are more stable. I still get thoughts but they are more localised and less vivid now. Then again there is suspicion I’ve got some ptsd going on which we will find out. But I think it can help you to get general therapy to work yourself out more. There are lots of people who have a predisposition for anxiety and obsessive thinking who don’t develop the disorder. I do think an ‘all angles’ approach is the way to beat this thing. Erp and act is good for the front line offender. But when it recess, how do we do reparative work to ensure we don’t reignite the cycle? Look at it this way -might seem like an odd analogy but bear with me: After the First World War the treaty of Versailles was raised with the firm intention to limit Germany’s economic process so they could not become the war machine they had. But that very aggressive treaty would lead to Germany’s collapse, allowing nazism to take a devastating foothold. So the cycle repeats with WW2. After that, approach was very different. It was all about peace treaties and encouraging trade and economic growth. Protective factors against a society being hijacked by radicals. This is the kind of aid and support the US piled onto Japan after they dropped a fucking H bomb on them. They knew exactly what it would lead to if they didn’t support afterwards. So front line offence (the war/battle). Followed by deeper exploration of relationships, themes and cultural and economic differences to find better ways of working and existing together. I think this two pronged approach is good. Psychoanalyst approach is not right as it looks for unconscious wishes directly related to the content. But erp is too one dimensional to address our mind and how it operates (and what data could be triggering and driving crazy fears around dreadful but extreme topics). It’s about finding those roots and that programming that drives such patterns (NOT content) that is truly reparative in my humble opinion. For me I cannot debt it’s links to sexual molestation, parents that NEVER got on and always fought, and a period of bullying in sixth form. It all adds up, until I hit adulthood, and my brains worldview is just not compatible with how the actual world is. Obsessive fear develops and conditioned responses to protect me in a world that feels very dangerous but isn’t.