I know with other themes similar things can happen, but with SOOCD is it possible? If someone says a scenario that you've never been in and asks how would you react? (And its a scenario you logically don't want to be in usually) and as you think about it you could see yourself having a good time/enjoying the scenario (when in reality you probably wouldn't). Is this a thing SOOCD does or is this just overthinking? My example: Someone on this app said to another person they should go on a date with a girl to learn if they were bi or not. I am a straight woman. I have always had crushes on boys, thought of being with a boy, dreamt of having a husband, I even have a boyfriend of 8 years. When I thought of the scenario of dating a girl to see what it's like at first I sort of laughed to myself cos I was like that's never going to happen because that's not me. Then in less than a second doubt came in and I could picture myself sitting across the table from some girl and laughing with her, wanting to know her. Now in this picture I never wanted or got the feeling that I wanted to have any sexual relations, yes she was attractive, but I didn't want to do anything with her. So after this I realised the whole wanting to know her and maybe even a hug could come from the fact I have no friends at all, I only have my bf. The female friends I had were so b*tchy that I cut myself off from them and also I'm not into "normal" things like drinking and clubbing, I also don't have as much money like them to hang out. I'm more into nature and reading etc. Then I used to have a group of male friends, which also had my old crush, and we would hang out almost every day playing football, chilling in the park, cinema, bowling etc. But then they told my bf to dump me out of jealousy and started becoming more his friend than mine (they did apologise months later but damage was done and they become people I didn't recognise). Sorry, kind of went on a bit there. Is it possible the potential of me liking going on a "date" with a girl is ocd? Not having female friends and possibly missing having a friend? The fact I've never been on a date with a girl so it would be that giddy nervous thing of trying something so out-there cos it doesn't align with who you are? Or is it my absolute worst fear come true? I understand no one knows for certain. I just wanted to know if it was a part of SOOCD really. I've also seen some people that have deliberately triggered others with their comments and did it on purpose. I'm asking those doing it deliberately if you could not do it? I'm doing better and don't want to backtrack right now, and it's also torturous to others.

It all started two months ago when I was making scenarios in my head to fall asleep.. i was imagining myself kissing a man and then it turned into a woman. The moment that happened, I opened my eyes and panicked.. it was complete panic, i started sweating, crying and I couldn’t function anymore. I started asking myself “am i gay”, “i have to come out to my boyfriend”, “i have to come out to everyone”, it was all within the span of 10 minutes… soooo overwhelming!! My mind acted as if I was gay, I lost my sense of identity, I couldn’t even trust myself anymore even when I reassured myself. It was such an awful cycle, to look at any person, a man to make sure i was straight, and a woman to make sure I wasn’t gay… i feel ashamed saying this. If i looked at a woman a certain way, like oh she’s pretty, my mind would say yes u see ur gay. After two months, I imagine any interest with a female stranger as a confirmation of being gay, I’m so nervous all the time, i start sweating and checking for groinal responses (the worst is when the response happens).. i cant afford a session with a therapist now, and i keep saying that i dont have OCD, im in denial, and that one day ill be gay. Can someone offer some insight on wether this sounds like OCD?

I haven’t really had a lot of trouble with my SO-OCD intrusive thoughts for a while, but I just got really triggered by one of my friends. I’m a straight female and I recently discovered the singer Chappell Roan, who sings primarily about LGBTQ+ and lesbian experiences. Listening to her music was a big deal for me because normally that sort of thing would trigger me, but it’s pretty catchy to me and a few of my friends (who happen to be lesbian) thought it was cool and were happy I was into the same music they were into. Well today, I sent them a text that I’ve fallen down the rabbit hole with her music and am starting to watch her interviews, which is something I usually do when I discover a new artist (I tend to hyperfixate on things a lot). After sending this text, one of my friends said “are you sure you’re not gay” which sent me into an intrusive thought spiral. In the past, she’s said I set off her “gaydar” which was also really triggering to me. My brain keeps telling me that if I come off that way, it must mean I’m lying to myself and I’m actually a lesbian. I wanted to tell her that I have SO-OCD and those types of comments trigger me, but I don’t want her to take it as me not being accepting of gay people. I felt like I finally got to a place where I’m confident I’m straight and now my brain is trying to trick me into thinking I’m lying to myself and it really sucks. I’m really just posting this because I don’t feel like anyone in my life would understand what these thoughts even feel like and it’s just awful.

Hi guys, do you ever feel, even when the anxious feelings are gone (and your not in the back door spike window) that you still dont know who you are and what you're afraid of ( for instance in this case, not being straight) is actually true and that whole OCD cycle you're in might or might not be OCD but it doesnt matter because you're just using it as a way of proving that what you're feeling is normal and not actually face the truth? these are my thoughts right now... I was doing well, but even when I am doing well I still think about those stuff idk... like how do I know what true love is? am I faking my love for my bf and one day I'll be tired and actually just "want to accept the truth because its lighter?" becaus at that point I really feel like I'm in a movie and just playing the role of someone. Between renée rapp coming out as a lesbian after saying she was bi and sophia bush an Chrishell stause falling in love with women after being with men all their life its been kind of a triggering week (even tho when I learned it felt like I was happy like yes! they're a part of the lgbtq+ community as if I was part of that community too which triggered me even more) PS : no disprespect to anyone I'm just really triggered and confused!!